Lyrics
For all my life
Expressing a longing or desire that spans their entire life.
I have wanted to step out of this skin
Desire to break free from their current identity or situation.
And forget all I know
Yearning to forget all accumulated knowledge and experience.
It escapes me
Feeling that understanding or realization is elusive or slipping away.
Within the throes of self
Feeling overwhelmed within one's own inner struggles and conflicts.
I drown out
Sense of drowning out the self amidst challenges.
Amongst an endless string of variables
Being lost among numerous unpredictable factors.
That now will collide in an instant
Anticipating a convergence of circumstances with significant impact.
Embraced by the world with its cold disinterest
Feeling accepted by the world but without genuine interest or warmth.
Why should I attempt to reconcile
Questioning the motive to reconcile given a life dominated by resentment.
When I exist only through resentment
Existence defined by negative emotions, particularly resentment.
I know, I know how this ends
Awareness of the inevitable outcome: solitude.
Alone
Emphasizing the theme of being alone.
And still I lament against a lifetime of bearing this fucking regret
Lamenting a lifetime burdened by intense regret.
From every mistake that I've made
Reflecting on the consequences of past mistakes.
And this debt that I owe it is too immense to ever repay
Acknowledging an overwhelming debt that cannot be repaid.
To fucking repay
Stressing the impossibility of repayment.
We're fucked either way
Conveying a sense of hopelessness and inevitability.
We're fucked either way
Reiterating the grim outlook on the situation.
You're fucked
Directing negativity towards someone, possibly a listener.
The depth of deceit
Describing the profound nature of deception surrounding them.
Now enveloping me
Experiencing the impact of deception and its lingering effects.
And twisting the blade once again but there's
Acknowledging pain or betrayal but suggesting a lack of emotional response.
Nothing left to bleed
Expressing a sense of emptiness or depletion.
Rot
Using "Rot" metaphorically, possibly indicating decay or deterioration.
I know it's selfish
Admitting a selfish perspective, denying responsibility for blame.
Rejecting the blame though it's mine
Accepting blame but asserting a desire to detach from it.
I know it's selfish
Repeating the acknowledgment of selfishness and a decision to leave others.
But I'm leaving you all behind
Affirming the choice to abandon others despite recognizing selfishness.
I know it's selfish
Repeating the internal conflict between accepting and rejecting blame.
Rejecting the blame though it's mine
Reiterating the decision to distance oneself from others despite self-awareness.
I know it's selfish
Affirming the selfish choice to abandon others and reject responsibility.
But I'm leaving you all behind
Reiterating the intention to leave others behind, emphasizing selfishness.
Rot inside this hole with baited breath I wait to hear you speak
Describing a state of isolation, waiting for communication with anticipation.
I remain enthralled inside the boundless grasp of consequence
Being captivated or controlled by the consequences of actions.
I failed you
Expressing personal failure and acknowledging it.
I failed you
Repeated acknowledgment of personal failure.
I failed you
Reiterating the theme of personal failure, possibly emphasizing regret.
I failed you
Continuing to admit personal failure, reinforcing a sense of remorse.
Punishment is all that awaits us now
Anticipating a bleak future characterized by punishment.
It's all that awaits us now
Reiterating the expectation of punishment as the inevitable outcome.
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