Lyrics
Feels like I waste my time on you
Feeling that time is wasted on someone.
Lost in the waves I've been confused
Feeling lost and confused in life's challenges.
Thought I could be myself
Initial belief in being true to oneself.
Every road now just leads to hell
Realization that every path leads to a negative place.
Still I wish you well
Wishing well for the person causing distress.
Know I'm still in love but I never would tell
Secretly still in love but unable to express it.
Lately I've been under your spell
Feeling captivated or influenced by someone.
But I never would tell
Keeping the feelings under wraps.
Lately I've been under your spell
Repetition of being under someone's influence.
Losing comfort in the simple things
Losing comfort in simple pleasures.
I tried my best to fight it
Struggling to resist undesirable emotions.
These feelings cant hide it
Emotions are difficult to conceal or control.
Still lost in all the memories
Being overwhelmed by memories.
I'm going straight silent
Becoming quiet and withdrawn.
My socials on private
Limiting access to personal life on social media.
Know what, you want
Understanding the desires of the other person.
I'm falling down again
Experiencing a downfall or setback.
No more, I give up
Deciding to give up on something.
Let me rest I'm dead
Expressing a desire for rest or escape.
Don't want, no ones
Rejecting insincere words or promises.
Empty words or promises
Desiring not to be abandoned.
Don't let go, please don't let go of me
Pleading not to be let go.
Let go of me
Reiteration of the plea not to be let go.
Shoulda known everything gonna end one day
Acknowledging the inevitability of endings.
Still I never thought it'd come this way
Surprise at the unexpected nature of the ending.
Everything I love thrown in the grave
Loss of everything beloved, leading to despair.
Watch the sun come up
Observing a new day without hope for the future.
Knowing I won't be here tomorrow
Acknowledging a lack of presence in the future.
Everyday been the same feeling hollow
Experiencing a monotonous and empty existence.
Laying face down in my bed with my eyes closed
Depicting a state of despair and withdrawal.
Yea I wonder if you stayed
Wondering about the impact of someone staying.
Would a thing even change
Doubting the potential for positive change.
Or is this all not real
Questioning the reality of the situation.
Don't leave me don't leave me
Begging not to be abandoned.
Our love has lost appeal
Recognizing a decline in the appeal of love.
Don't leave me don't leave me
Reiteration of the plea not to be abandoned.
Got some wounds that I know cant be healed
Acknowledging unhealable emotional wounds.
Don't leave me don't leave me
Repetition of not wanting to be abandoned.
Got coke on my cigarette butt and I'm ready to kill
Mention of destructive tendencies and readiness to harm.
Anybody who stands right in my way
Expressing a willingness to overcome obstacles.
I'll do it for myself and face your pain
Taking control for self-improvement despite pain.
Know what, you want
Reiteration of falling down emotionally.
I'm falling down again
Decision to stop resisting emotional struggles.
No more, I give up
Reaffirmation of giving up.
Let me rest I'm dead
Expressing a desire for rest or escape.
Don't want, no ones
Rejecting insincere words or promises.
Empty words or promises
Desiring not to be abandoned.
Don't let go, please don't let go of me
Pleading not to be let go.
Let go of me
Reiteration of the plea not to be let go.
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