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Yeah
Introduction or affirmation
I wasn't right within, was lyin' tryna find a slim openin'
Feeling internally wrong, seeking a small opportunity to deal with overwhelming hopelessness
To cope with grim realities of hopelessness
Struggling with grim realities and a lack of hope
The casualties of broken men, unhappily devoted when
People suffering from brokenness, devoted despite unhappiness
They hit me, all the walls were tryna kiss me, they were closin' in
Feeling trapped, walls closing in, suffocating
I'm soakin' in a tub of how the fuck did this all happen?
Reflecting on how things went wrong, questioning the situation
Can I fasten my seatbelt before the tree and me are wrapped in
Desire to avoid a catastrophe or downfall, but feeling unable to escape
A blanket I can't escape? But the brakes that I have ain't brakin'
Inability to stop or control the situation
And the weight that I feel is achin', they say we don't feel the same shit
Others not understanding personal pain despite fame
The pain isn't real, I'm famous, the cage that I'm in is dangerous
Feeling trapped in a dangerous and anxious perception
I'm chained, the perception anxious, every day I'm faced the anguish
Being confined and anxious, facing daily torment
Of fakin' and savin' faces, so drainin', I pray it changes
Exhausted from pretending and maintaining appearances
Self-hatred's an understatement for makin' the bed I lay in
Extreme self-hatred for current circumstances
My faith and my patience shaken, I'm cravin' a new awakenin'
Loss of faith and patience, desiring a fresh start
I'm chasin' myself, I'm wavin', complainin' that I'm evadin'
Chasing oneself, complaining about evasion
Betrayin' myself was strainin' and slayed by my past, I'm racin'
Feeling strained and haunted by past mistakes
That ancient indoctrination, I'm blazin' whatever's failin'
Rejecting traditional beliefs or teachings, embracing change despite failure
And scrapin' up the remainin', be shapin' my soul creatin'
Trying to salvage what remains, shaping a new self
Embracin' the new foundation, no swayin', no more decayin'
Commitment to a stable and unwavering foundation
The process of excavation, surveillin' what needs replacin'
Actively examining what needs improvement, avoiding complacency
This daily, can't get complacent, I'm takin' solo vacations
Seeking solitude and a break from problems
I need solitude, I think a bottle too, many problems due
Desiring isolation and potentially turning to substances to cope
To not wanting to upset my family, plus I got the news
Pressure from family and receiving unwelcome news
That sadness ain't allowed from the same crowd that turns around
Being disallowed to express sadness by a hypocritical crowd
And asks for sad songs, tell me how, 'cause as a man, you cannot frown
Expectations of masculinity, hiding emotions
Don't make a sound, just a stand up proud
Advice to maintain pride and a strong appearance
No one appreciatin' us until we're dead and underground
Realization that appreciation often comes posthumously
It's no surprise that suicide is super high, it's not unusual
Understanding the high rates of suicide due to lack of recognition and support
'Cause men know that they only get their flowers at their funeral
Men not nurturing themselves emotionally but toughening up
We're hardenin' ourselves instead of gardennin' ourselves
Suppressing emotions instead of addressing them
Suppressed emotions, we're alone, so now we're targetin' ourselves
Resulting in self-harm or self-sabotage
Don't wanna talk to out of pride, in fear of comin' off weak
Refusing to appear weak by seeking help
Some women lookin' at you lesser if there's tears on your cheek
Societal judgment of men for displaying emotions
But if there's tears tattooed, that same girl is a freak
Contradictions in societal expectations regarding pain and expression
So they attracted to the pain unless they hear the pain speak
Attractiveness associated with pain but not the expression of it
Society romanticizin' silent sufferers, stoicism is sexy
Romanticization of silent suffering, stoicism seen as attractive
Unless he can't show that, he fucks with her, if that's your girl, be done with her
Encouragement to leave a partner who cannot empathize with pain
'Cause if you're numb to the pain, then you're numb to the pleasure
If one becomes numb to pain, they lose the ability to feel pleasure
Whether it's sun or it's rain, to you it's all the same weather
Equating different life experiences (sun and rain) as equally indifferent
These days I'm better off retreated and reserved
Currently finding solace in isolation and introspection
On a resort, then re-emerge feelin' recharged and reassured that I'm
Retreating temporarily to rejuvenate before rejoining the world
Enough
Affirmation of self-worth, realization that personal worth is enough
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