Table For One
Table For One: Echoes of Lost Love in Ryleigh Theresa's Melody
Lyrics
The nicknames you gave me five years ago still stick
The affectionate names you gave me five years ago still resonate with me.
The rose-colored glasses sit on my face but for you, they don't fit
I view the past with optimistic nostalgia, but when it comes to you, that perspective is inappropriate.
I've always looked through a lens of an alternate world where we make it
I have always seen our relationship through a lens of an imaginary world where we succeed.
Even though I understand it's incredibly unrealistic
Despite understanding that such expectations are unrealistic.
And now I get a table for one at our old favorite restaurant
Now, I find myself dining alone at our once-favorite restaurant.
And hope that I bump into you, turn it into a table for two
I hope to run into you, transforming it into a shared meal for two.
But you've already moved on, you're already gone
You have moved on, and you are no longer present in my life.
And I sit here pathetic at our old restaurant
I feel dejected, sitting alone at our cherished restaurant.
Where I got a table for one and pretend to look so nonchalant
Pretending to appear unaffected as I dine alone.
You were a good juxtaposition to my mind
You provided a contrasting perspective to my thoughts.
You leveled me out and helped me to rationalize
You balanced me and helped me make rational decisions.
I made all my decisions based on what you would want even when you got up and left
I shaped my choices based on your preferences, even after you left.
Now my minds all caught up on when I'll get to see you again
Now, my thoughts are fixated on when I'll see you again.
And now I get a table for one at our old favorite restaurant
Once again, I dine alone at our favorite spot.
And hope that I bump into you turn it into a table for two
Hoping for a chance encounter to turn it into a shared experience.
But you've already moved on, you're already gone
You have moved on, and you are no longer available.
And I sit here pathetic at our old restaurant
I sit forlorn at our old restaurant.
Where I got a table for one and pretend to look so nonchalant
Dining alone, pretending to be indifferent.
As I leave the diner with a one way check
Leaving the diner with a bill for one person.
I can't help but to feel like I've been perplexed
I feel confused and perplexed about my life.
'Cause my life is a mess and my mind is a wreck
My life is chaotic, and my mind is in disarray.
And I'm too caught up in what we could've been
I am preoccupied with thoughts of what our relationship could have been.
Maybe someday we'll cross paths again
Expressing a hope that we might meet again in the future.
Maybe you'll be the person I made up in my head
Imagining you as the idealized version I created in my mind.
But that version of you doesn't really exist
The idealized version of you is not a true representation of who you are.
In my mind you look so nondescript
In my thoughts, you appear ordinary and unremarkable.
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Murmuring sounds expressing emotional contemplation.
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