Lyrics
I always need somebody to need me
I always seek the need for someone to depend on me
Oh woe is me, again in my feelings I
Expressing distress and emotional turmoil
I tell myself that this is beneath me
Convincing oneself that the current situation is beneath one's dignity
My bravado
Referring to a false sense of confidence or bravery
Is so revealing
Indicating that the bravado reveals vulnerability
I find myself alone in the evenings
Feeling alone during evenings
I count to ten
Engaging in a calming exercise by counting to ten
And stare at my ceiling again
Reflecting on thoughts while staring at the ceiling
And count all the lifelines I bent
Contemplating the impact of choices on one's life
And count all the timelines I left
Reflecting on the timelines and paths left behind
But those people places
Referencing people, places, and situations that linger in the mind
Situations
Expressing the persistent influence of certain elements
Stay laid up in my bed
Mentions remaining in bed, possibly overwhelmed or stuck
And I can't sit with myself
Struggling to be comfortable with oneself
I can't sit with myself
Repeated emphasis on the difficulty of self-acceptance
I can't sit with myself
-I can't sit with myself
-Bravado
Reiteration of the theme of false confidence or bravado
Said he want a model
Describing challenges in meeting external expectations
I ain't really tall though
-Tough pill to swallow
-Hard act to follow
-See him tomorrow
-I don't know no other way
Expressing difficulty in compensating for a transparent, fake tough exterior
And I don't know how to compensate
-For this see through, fake tough skin
-Keep it on the inside, take it on the chin
Keeping inner struggles hidden, facing challenges
I can't sit with myself, no
Continued struggle with self-acceptance
I can't sit with myself
-I can't sit with myself
-No
-I can't sit with myself
Reiteration of the difficulty in being comfortable with oneself
And now I got this psychic on the phone
Seeking answers from a psychic due to personal uncertainty
Cuz I can't find the answer on my own
-She pulled the tower
-She said it's over
-I paid the hour
Describing efforts to gain closure through external means
To get no closure
-I tried practice, patience, meditation
Trying different methods, like patience and meditation, to cope with emotional distress
Cried my nights up
-Slept my days in
-Made the bed I hate to lay in
-I
Expressing the difficulty of being alone with oneself
I can't sit with myself, no
Repeating the struggle of not being able to sit comfortably with oneself
I can't sit with myself
-I can't sit with myself, no
-I can't sit with myself
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