Your Birthday Without You
Celebrating Your Absence: A Melody of Birthday Longings
Lyrics
i woke up at 6 to send a sweet birthday message
The speaker woke up early to send a heartfelt birthday message.
i hoped for it to be the very 1st thing you saw
They hoped it would be the first thing the recipient saw that day.
you wrote, "you sound like a Hallmark card"
The recipient's response implied the message sounded cliché or overly sentimental.
that was all you said but at least you'd read it
Despite the short response, the speaker was glad the recipient read the message.
i went back to bed
The speaker returned to sleep after sending the message.
then got up at 10
They woke up later, around 10 AM.
had some breakfast, listened to a song again
Had breakfast and listened to a song they wrote the night before.
that i'd written the night before
The song possibly holds significance related to the recipient.
i thought of changing all the words to make it yours
Considered changing the song's lyrics to relate more to the recipient.
i started celebrating your birthday, you know i was celebrating your birthday
The speaker actively celebrated the recipient's birthday despite their absence.
without you
Emphasizes the celebration happening 'without you,' underscoring the absence.
i imagined how cute you must've looked
Imagining the recipient as a child, possibly fondly reminiscing.
as a four year old girl with all those dark, dark curls
Describing the imagined appearance of the recipient as a young child.
then i went out and bought you a book
The speaker bought a gift (book) for the recipient.
i even to a look as i flipped through the pages
Reflecting on browsing the book's content.
i picked up a cupcake, picked out some cards
Purchasing cupcakes and multiple cards, struggling with choices.
bought you more than one because deciding was too hard
Indecision led to buying more than one card.
i might've checked my phone a couple of times
The speaker checked their phone multiple times, anticipating a message from the recipient.
there was no word from you
There was no communication received from the recipient.
i played it cool, stood in line
Remaining composed despite the lack of communication.
that's how i was celebrating your birthday, you know i was celebrating your birthday
Continued celebrating despite the absence, emphasizing the situation 'without you.'
without you
Reiterating the celebration happening despite the recipient's absence.
i had dinner at a restaurant that i eat at all the time
Dined at a familiar restaurant, reassuring themselves about the recipient's activities.
told myself, "she's doing yoga after work, everything's fine
Self-reassurance about the recipient's engagement in yoga, trying to remain positive.
still had the cards to sign, still had to buy some candles
Still had tasks to complete, like signing cards and buying candles.
hit the grocery store with a bunch of guys in sandals
Performed routine errands, noticing other shoppers.
and now the sun's gone down, i'm sitting in my car
The day progressed, and the speaker finds themselves waiting for communication.
waiting for your call, thinking of visiting a bar
Considering going to a bar, possibly due to disappointment or loneliness.
i think i had a pretty good attitude
Maintained a positive outlook despite feeling let down by the recipient's silence.
that lasted all day long although your non-participation was rude
Acknowledges the recipient's lack of involvement as impolite or disappointing.
it would've been more fun to spend your birthday with you
Expresses the desire to be with the recipient, emphasizing the contrast of celebration with and without them.
a helluva lot more fun to spend your birthday with you
Reiterates the fun that would have been present if the recipient were there.
you were born today, you're a miracle! you were born today, you're a miracle!
A reminder of the significance of the recipient's birthday as a miraculous event.
that's all i have to say as i wrap up your birthday
Ending the day's celebration and acknowledgment of the birthday's significance.
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