Lyrics
Latent communication on my nightstand,
There's unexpressed communication lying dormant or hidden on the nightstand.
You know I never liked that,
The speaker never appreciated or favored that aspect.
I never liked that.
Reiteration of the speaker's dislike for the aforementioned communication.
I choke brace position never helped no one,
The act of preparing for a disaster (brace position) hasn't been helpful.
Now I'm just a lousy son of a gun,
The speaker feels inadequate or worthless.
Poking fun at someone,
Making jokes or mocking someone, potentially to mask insecurities.
With my eyes closed.
Engaging in mockery or criticism without facing it directly (metaphorically, with closed eyes).
Trip so long,
A journey or experience that's emotionally taxing and extended.
Oozing, whining, starving moron.
Feeling emotionally vulnerable, distressed, and needy.
Trip so long,
Reiteration of the emotionally arduous journey.
Through the sludge the heavy water.
Progressing through difficulties, symbolized by "sludge" and "heavy water."
So much waiting around.
Experiencing a significant amount of time spent in waiting or anticipation.
Back bone, I'm so spineless,
Feeling lacking in courage or determination.
Who'd have guessed though?
Surprising others with the lack of expected qualities or behaviors.
I'm contrived it's not an act no,
Admitting that their behavior is genuine, not an act or pretense.
It's just a means to survive,
Survival instincts driving the speaker's actions.
It's so contractual.
Actions or behaviors governed by a contract-like obligation.
Front stroke,
Struggling to maintain composure and control.
Stay composed I'm on my tip toes,
Trying to remain composed while being on edge or nervous.
Treading water from the get go,
Struggling continuously from the start, metaphorically "treading water."
And asking why you never no.
Questioning why something was never communicated or expressed.
You never said so.
Realization that they didn't decline or refuse something.
I never said no.
Acknowledging not having refused or declined something.
Trip so long,
Reiteration of the emotionally taxing and extended journey.
Oozing, whining, starving moron.
Feeling emotionally vulnerable, distressed, and needy (repeated).
Trip so long,
Reiteration of progressing through difficulties.
Through the sludge the heavy water.
Continuing through challenging situations (repeated).
So much waiting around.
Expressing frustration or dissatisfaction with waiting extensively.
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