Masquerade
Unveiling My Broken Reflection
Lyrics
Time and time again
Repeated experiences of feeling abandoned and isolated
I'm left abandoned shattered alone
Emotional devastation and being left alone
I've lost all hope
A complete loss of optimism or positive expectation
I faked a smile
Presenting a false happiness
I faked my courage
Falsely projecting bravery or strength
I faked a sense of hope
Fabricating a belief in a positive outcome
Look at me for who I really am
Desire for genuine recognition and acceptance
Not for what you thought I'd be
Not meeting others' expectations, feeling inadequate
I've grown too good at masking all my flaws
Being skilled at hiding imperfections or weaknesses
I never met your expectations and I never will
Recognizing the inability to meet others' standards
Look at me for who I really am
Reiterating the desire for authentic acceptance
One by one I watched them leave
Witnessing people departing one by one
I watched them turn their backs on me
Observing rejection and abandonment
I was never worth it
Internalized belief of being unworthy
I was never worth their fucking time
Feeling undeserving of others' time and attention
Leave me behind
Wishing to be left behind, considering oneself as waste
Discard me like the waste I am
Desiring to be discarded due to perceived worthlessness
Leave me behind
Repetition of the desire to be left behind
I faked a sense of hope
Continued falsification of hope
Look at me for who I really am
Reiteration of the longing for genuine recognition
Not for what you thought I'd be
Not being perceived based on others' expectations
I've grown too good at masking all my flaws
Proficiency in concealing personal imperfections
I never met your expectations and I never will
Acknowledgment of failure to meet others' standards
Look at me for who I really am
Reaffirming the desire for authentic recognition
For years I've had everything I love slowly disappear
Loss of beloved things over an extended period
At times it gets the best of me
Struggling with the emotional impact of loss
Why must everything I hold dearly leave me as if it were nothing?
Questioning the constant departure of loved things
I'm left to face the world alone
Being forced to confront life's challenges alone
Everyone I've ever loved has failed me
Feeling let down by those once loved
I'm left to face the world alone
Continued isolation due to fading relationships
The ones who claimed to love me have faded away, like the hope that's left inside of me
People claiming love disappearing, paralleling diminishing hope
I watched the faces disappear while I stay behind
Observing others leaving while remaining behind
I'd rather face this in my own
Preferably dealing with difficulties independently
I'm broken but this is who I am
Accepting personal brokenness as intrinsic to identity
This is who I'll always be
Embracing a constant state of brokenness as inherent
This is who I'll always be
Reiteration of embracing perpetual brokenness as self
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