One More Night
Embracing Shadows: A Journey Through Self-Destruction and Redemption
Lyrics
I know I said I'd stop being fucked up all the time
I acknowledge that I previously committed to avoiding destructive behavior consistently.
But look, I'm already drunk tonight
Despite my earlier pledge, I find myself intoxicated tonight.
I know I promised within one year I'd be fine
I promised to improve within a year, but I'm contemplating the consequences of indulging for one more night.
But what's the harm in just one more night
Questioning the harm in allowing myself one additional night of self-destructive behavior.
Another day
Reflecting on another day where I struggle to recall what I intended to forget.
I can't remember what I wanted to forget
Expressing a determination to change and a desire to forget painful memories.
I swear I'll change
Stating the intention to change and believing in one's ability to handle the challenges.
I really think that this time I can handle it
Expressing confidence that this time, one can effectively cope with the difficulties.
Twelve years of age
Recalling a troubled period at the age of twelve, using pills to cope and praying to avoid facing the harsh reality.
I'm popping pills and praying I don't see the sun
Describing the impact of substance abuse through vomit stains and the need to hide one's struggles from others.
The vomit stains
Encouraging to maintain composure and not share personal struggles with others.
So hold your head up, don't you dare tell anyone
Advising to endure silently and not disclose vulnerabilities to the world.
(We don't wanna hear you say it)
Emphasizing a reluctance to hear expressions of personal pain from the speaker.
Bite your tongue and make it go away
Suggesting suppressing one's emotions and making them disappear.
And if it bleeds, well, you'll be thanking me one day
Implies that enduring pain silently will be appreciated or understood in the future.
I know I said I'd stop being fucked up all the time
Reiterating the struggle to abstain from destructive behavior consistently.
But look, I'm already drunk tonight
Despite intentions, the speaker finds themselves drunk once again.
I know I promised within one year I'd be fine
Revisiting the commitment to improve within a specified timeframe.
But what's the harm in just one more night
Questioning the consequences of indulging in self-destructive behavior for just one more night.
Another day
Reflecting on another day, having spent a decade attempting to resolve personal issues.
I've spent ten years telling myself I'll work it out
Expressing the need to act one's age and outgrow destructive patterns.
Well, act your age
Reflecting on the persistent struggle and questioning personal growth.
Don't you think you should have outgrown this by now
Suggesting that others may expect the speaker to have overcome these challenges by now.
(Have they drugged it out of you yet)
Questioning if external factors or influences have suppressed the speaker's struggles.
Serves you right for trying anyway
Expressing a sense of deserving negative consequences for attempting to change.
'Cause let's be honest, do you really think you'll change
Doubting the sincerity of the speaker's intention to change.
I act like I'm so fucking special just because I hate myself
Admitting to a facade of superiority as a defense mechanism against self-loathing.
And I talk a big game but I'm just a little kid
Acknowledging a discrepancy between the speaker's words and their actual maturity level.
I'm gonna show the world exactly how revolting I can get
Expressing a desire to showcase the darker, more repulsive aspects of oneself to the world.
'Cause baby, this is all I've ever been
Defining the speaker's identity as rooted in their perceived revolting nature.
I know I said I'd stop being fucked up all the time
Reiterating the ongoing struggle to abstain from destructive behavior consistently.
But look, I'm already drunk tonight
Despite intentions, the speaker finds themselves drunk once again.
I know I promised within one year I'd be fine
Revisiting the commitment to improve within a specified timeframe.
But what's the harm in just one more night
Questioning the consequences of indulging in self-destructive behavior for just one more night.
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