You're Not Gone
Unraveling Love: A Heart's Struggle with Your Absence
Lyrics
I’ve fooled my feet to think that we’re still dancing
I try to deceive myself into believing that we're still dancing together.
My ears believe they hear you when I’m home
Even when I'm at home, I imagine hearing your voice.
My eyes still see your face
Despite the physical absence, I can still vividly visualize your face.
My arms feel your embrace
I can feel the sensation of your hug through memory.
But I can’t convince my heart that you’re not gone
Struggling to accept the emotional reality that you're no longer here.
I haunt the same old barroom that we used to
I frequent the bar we used to visit, trying to relive our shared memories.
That juke box it still plays your favorite song
The jukebox still plays the song that reminds me of you.
I order drinks for two
Ordering drinks for two, pretending you're still with me.
Pretend there’s me and you
Faking a companionship that no longer exists.
But I can’t convince my heart that you’re not gone
Continuing to grapple with the emotional reality of your absence.
And it’s taking up all my time to live this lie
Living a lie takes a toll on my time and emotions.
I miss you so, won’t you please come home
Expressing deep longing for your return and a plea for reconciliation.
And I’m faking it everyday like it’s OK
Putting on a facade that everything is okay when it's not.
But the rest of me is starting to catch on
Admitting that the facade is becoming harder to maintain.
I watch the sad charade that I’m still playing
Observing the false image I portray and questioning how much longer I can keep it up.
And I wonder can I keep this up for long
Wondering about the sustainability of the act.
I act a real good smile
Displaying a convincing smile to hide the pain.
I’ll fool me for a while
Acknowledging that the act is temporary and will only fool me for a while.
But I can’t convince my heart that you’re not gone
Continuing to struggle with the emotional truth of your absence.
I go about each day just like I used to
Going through daily routines as if everything is normal.
I’m fine till I crawl in our bed alone
Pretending to be fine until I'm alone in our bed.
I wake up every night
Awakening each night to the stark reality of sleeping alone.
To find I’m sleeping on your side
Finding myself on your side of the bed, emphasizing your absence.
‘Cause I can’t convince my heart that you’re not gone
Concluding the struggle to convince myself that you're still present.
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