Lavender
Lavender Scented Memories: Breaking Free
Lyrics
I kept our memories in a bottle
I have preserved our memories metaphorically, possibly not dealing with them properly.
But I guess I should've burned them
Reflecting on burning the memories, indicating a desire to let go and move on.
Thinking about you never got me very far
Thinking about you hasn't been beneficial or productive.
And I wish that you would feel a little empty
Wishing the other person would understand and share the emotional burden.
So you could feel the same as me
Desiring empathy from the other person.
But for now I guess I'll do my best
Committing to the effort of keeping distance or detachment.
To keep you out of frame
Actively trying to exclude the person from thoughts or visuals.
You're the centerpiece
Referring to the person as a central figure, possibly negative or problematic.
To everything that's wrong with me
Attributing personal issues or flaws to the influence of the person.
Stop calling
Requesting the person to stop contacting.
'Cause I owe you nothing
Asserting independence and not owing anything to the other person.
'Cause I still get choked up on the bitter taste of your last name
Expressing lingering emotional pain associated with the person's last name.
And I still get bruises from the sound of you on the other end
Continuing emotional distress caused by the person's presence or communication.
And maybe I should just get off my ass and call you back
Acknowledging the need to respond but struggling due to personal challenges.
But I'm too busy wandering away from everything that's good for me
Choosing to avoid positive aspects or relationships for self-destructive tendencies.
And I guess I miss the way your hair smelled just like lavender
Nostalgically missing a positive sensory memory related to the person.
But I don't miss the butterflies and how they made my stomach hurt
Recalling the negative impact of past emotions, contrasting with positive memories.
I'm all tied up in knots as I pace around in the parking lot of your apartment
Feeling emotionally tangled and conflicted in the presence of the person's space.
When I really should go home instead
Awareness of the need to leave the current situation for personal well-being.
You're the centerpiece
Reiterating the person's negative influence on personal issues or challenges.
To everything that's wrong with me
Reiterating the person's role in contributing to personal problems.
Stop calling
Repeated request for the person to stop contacting.
'Cause I owe you nothing
Reiterating independence and not being indebted to the other person.
'Cause I still get choked up on the bitter taste of your last name
Continued emotional impact associated with the person's last name.
And I still get bruises from the sound of you on the other end
Ongoing emotional distress caused by the person's presence or communication.
And maybe I should just get off my ass and call you back
Recognizing the need to respond but struggling due to personal challenges.
But I'm too busy wandering away from everything that's good for me
Continuing to avoid positive aspects or relationships for self-destructive tendencies.
And maybe I should just get off my ass and call you back
Reiterating the internal conflict about responding to the person.
But I'm too busy wandering away from everything that's good for me
Continuing the self-destructive pattern of avoiding what is good for personal well-being.
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