Lyrics
Julia called me up late last night
Julia contacted the speaker late at night
I hadnt heard from her in ages
The speaker hadn't heard from Julia in a long time
She said that she hated living her life
Julia expressed her dislike for her life
And that she hopes that Ill make it
Julia hopes the speaker will have a better life
Julia never had it all together
Julia lacked stability in her life
She was keeping everything to herself
She kept her struggles to herself
Fell in love with boys she thought were forever
Julia fell in love with boys she thought were permanent but ended up being discarded
But eventually they placed her on a shelf
Those boys eventually abandoned her
Julia was scared of getting older
Julia feared aging
She didnt have a plan or any goals
She lacked a plan or goals
Every winter felt a little colder
Every winter felt progressively colder for Julia
And one day she decided just to fold
Julia decided to give up on life one day
She never told her mother that she felt like this
Julia kept her struggles hidden from her mother
She never talked to her friends or to a therapist
She didn't share her feelings with friends or a therapist
Thought It'd be easier to hide or run from the pain, but
Julia believed it would be easier to hide or run from the pain
It never went away
The pain she tried to avoid never disappeared
Julia smoked weed alone in parking lots
Julia coped with her thoughts by smoking weed alone in parking lots
She said it helped her thoughts stop wondering off
She thought it helped stop her thoughts from wandering
And for a moment she felt free, but it was all temporary
Despite feeling momentarily free, it was only temporary
And she stopped wishing for a heartbeat
She stopped desiring a meaningful life
She never told her mother that she felt like this
Similar to line 16, Julia kept her struggles hidden from her mother
She never talked to her friends or to a therapist
She continued to keep her feelings to herself
Thought It'd be easier to hide or run from the pain, but
Julia believed avoiding the pain was the easier option
It never went away
The pain persisted despite her efforts to escape it
Julia had the biggest heart I knew
Julia had a generous and kind heart
She always told you things youd wanna hear
She always spoke positively and supportively
She never missed a birthday or a show of mine
Julia never missed important events in the speaker's life
And she didnt deserve this life
Despite her positive qualities, Julia didn't deserve the difficult life she experienced
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