Lyrics
I quit smoking
I have quit smoking.
Yeah that is a lie
Admitting that quitting smoking is not entirely truthful or sincere.
I almost got drunk and didn't say your name
I came close to getting drunk but refrained from mentioning your name.
Out loud
Specifically, I didn't say your name out loud.
Not even as a joke
Not even in a humorous context to my friends.
To my friends
My friends are tired of hearing about you.
Who can't take it anymore
I consciously avoid mentioning you to spare my friends from discomfort.
I avoid to
Avoiding going to places we used to visit together.
Going to the places
Specifically, places that evoke memories of our past.
Where we used to go to
Avoiding reminders of happier times with you.
Cause it reminds me
These places trigger memories of better days we shared.
Of the better days
Reflecting on a loss and feeling unimpressed.
Now I'm not even amazed
I'm not amazed anymore by social groups or events.
By the social clique
Indifference towards societal cliques.
Or the president's speech
Lack of interest in political speeches or teachings.
Or whatever they teach
Disengagement from political or societal education.
I'm running around
I'm constantly on the move.
I'm playing the sound
Engaging in repetitive behaviors, possibly to distract from emotions.
On repeat
Repeating a particular sound or music as a coping mechanism.
If you ask me
If questioned about my feelings...
To this day
...up to this day...
If I hate you
...if I have hatred towards you...
(Hate you)
...I would honestly admit it.
I would be honest
Similar to the promise you made to stay.
Just like you promised you'd stay
You are no longer present as promised.
(you're not here anymore)
Expressing the absence of the person.
So I guess I'll lie again
Considering telling a lie again, reminiscent of the past.
Like I did back then I told you
Referring to a previous lie about quitting smoking.
I stopped smoking a lot
Revealing that the claim of stopping smoking was false.
I'm running around
Reiterating the theme of constant movement and repetition.
I'm playing the sound
Continuing the pattern of playing a specific sound on repeat.
On repeat
Reinforcing the idea of repetition as a coping mechanism.
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