Disconnect
Unraveling the Depths: A Journey Through Inner Struggles
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These things which I so often wonder
Contemplation about things that provoke curiosity or uncertainty.
This need to create myself
Expressing a need to define one's identity or purpose.
Frustration forgotten through slumber
Overcoming frustration through sleep, a temporary escape.
It's there when I wake
A persistent issue faced upon waking up.
Defeated before I rise
Feeling defeated even before attempting to overcome challenges.
I'd pull myself out of his mire
Desire to escape a difficult situation or emotional state.
If I could collect my strength
Expressing a lack of strength to pull oneself out of a challenging situation.
Or muster an ounce of desire
Lack of motivation or desire to make a change.
Finding the words, and making them mine
Struggling to articulate thoughts and make them one's own.
Is there somewhere
Exploring the possibility of finding a place to separate emotions from memories.
I could separate this feeling from memory
Questioning the feasibility of disconnecting from personal feelings.
Disconnect myself from me?
Desire to detach from oneself and escape internal struggles.
Desire inside to mistreat you
Feeling an internal urge to mistreat someone, perhaps out of frustration.
It pushes words out of my mouth
Expressing difficulty in controlling words due to inner turmoil.
This cyclical pattern I feed you
Describing a recurring pattern of communication, possibly destructive.
The back and forth, and up and down
Emphasizing the repetitive and fluctuating nature of interactions.
But still here you are
Despite challenges, the person is still present in the relationship.
Behind this veil of pious revelation
Describing a facade of righteous revelation concealing true feelings.
I'll close my eyes and look for worth inside
Attempting to find self-worth by closing one's eyes to external judgments.
I don't deserve you
Feeling unworthy of the other person in the relationship.
Relinquishing hope for the future
Letting go of hope for a positive future outcome.
I try not to hate it so
Trying not to harbor resentment towards an undesirable situation.
But you are a bridge to those memories
Acknowledging a connection between the present and painful memories.
I try to forget, if you only knew
Efforts to forget the past, possibly for the sake of the relationship.
Is there somewhere to occupy emotion
Seeking a place to channel and manage emotional turmoil.
A room to keep my rage away from you?
Desiring a space to prevent the expression of rage toward the other person.
Just tell me when these hopeless days are over
Expressing hope for an end to difficult times.
I'll open my eyes and see my new sun rise
Awaiting a positive change in perspective and a new beginning.
I don't deserve this
Feeling undeserving of the current situation or emotions.
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