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What if every girl that said she loved me actually meant it
Expressing doubt about the sincerity of past declarations of love from girls.
And didn't play with my head to the point that I had to regret it
Reflecting on the emotional manipulation experienced and subsequent regret.
We were going back and forth like it was matches of tennis
Describing a tumultuous relationship with back-and-forth dynamics.
I tried to trust you but its hard when you go back on your sentence
Struggling to trust someone who breaks their promises.
What if every house I lived in didn't have to be rented
Wishing for stable housing situations instead of relying on rentals.
And all my homies out the flats, no one back on the benefits
Desiring a better life for friends without dependence on government benefits.
We the ones the caught the slack when we were homeless and kept it in
Recalling times of homelessness and facing criticism despite efforts.
They all up on my back like I ain't known to put effort in
Facing criticism for perceived lack of effort despite actual hard work.
Over this jealous shit, they hate to see me slowly developing
Dealing with jealousy as personal development progresses.
And these girls message now but I was broke with depression then
Noting the contrast between current attention and past struggles with depression.
I hate the way I looked I never used to post on anything
Expressing dissatisfaction with appearance and reluctance to share on social media.
My face was in a book I wouldn't trade this shit for anything
Valuing personal growth and experiences over superficial considerations.
I knew I couldn't trust her from the moment that I met the bitch
Distrusting someone from the beginning, regretting involvement.
I knew that I'd regret it, that's the dumbest that I've ever bin
Regretting a past decision as the dumbest choice made.
You were on the fence but I'm the one who stuck through thick and thin
Staying committed in a relationship despite uncertainties.
You really think I'm cold when your the one that went and left with him
Feeling blamed for being cold when the partner left with someone else.
If it wasn't for my mates and all the family I've lost then I probably wouldn't take this shit Serious
Acknowledging the support of friends and family during tough times.
If it wasn't for the music and the fans that I've got, than real talk, maybe no one'd hear This shit
Recognizing the significance of music and fans in coping with challenges.
If it wasn't for my mates and all the family I've lost then I probably wouldn't take this shit Serious
Reiterating the importance of support from friends and family.
If it wasn't for the music and the fans that I've got, than real talk, maybe no one'd hear This shit
Highlighting the role of music and fans in being heard and recognized.
I've bin questioning everything, why the fuck did I put effort in?
Questioning the effort invested in various aspects of life.
Got better things to do with my time than be stuck stressing here
Expressing a desire to focus on more meaningful pursuits than stress.
I'm the one that's losing my mind fighting through everything
Feeling mentally strained and wondering about the lack of communication.
So why does she still wonder why I never ring?
Questioning why the partner wonders about the lack of communication.
It's never clear
Expressing confusion and lack of clarity in the situation.
Every time you said you love me swear you said it weird
Noting unusual expressions of love, possibly insincere.
If I've bin on the rise and still felt lower than I've ever bin
Reflecting on personal growth while still feeling emotionally low.
Imagine what this shit might do to me if I just let it slip
Contemplating the potential impact of letting things slip.
I don't seem to ever win, I think it's time I get a grip
Feeling a lack of success and considering taking control.
You said that I could make it that's what made me think I'm meant for this
Believing in potential success based on someone's encouragement.
I hate that I keep memories of us fighting over petty shit
Expressing frustration over holding onto memories of petty arguments.
I was feeling empty like a ride that's got no petty
Describing a sense of emptiness comparable to a ride without purpose.
At the same time I'm going off path like I ain't ever driven
Deviating from the expected path without a clear direction.
Don't get a minute to my self to try to comprehend what's going on
Struggling to find time for self-reflection amid a chaotic life.
So how am I to tell the difference?
Questioning the ability to distinguish positive and negative thoughts.
I don't listen to my self unless it's negative thoughts
Admitting a tendency to focus on negative self-talk rather than positive thoughts.
I kept it all to my self
Keeping personal struggles hidden from others.
The truth is it would of helped if I didn't
Acknowledging that sharing struggles could have been beneficial.
If it wasn't for my mates and all the family I've lost then I probably wouldn't take this shit serious
Reiterating the impact of losing friends and family on taking life seriously.
If it wasn't for the music and the fans that I've got, than real talk, maybe no one'd hear this shit
Emphasizing the role of music and fans in being heard and recognized.
If it wasn't for my mates and all the family I've lost then I probably wouldn't take this shit serious
Reiterating the impact of losing friends and family on taking life seriously.
If it wasn't for the music and the fans that I've got, than real talk, maybe no one'd hear This shit
Emphasizing the role of music and fans in being heard and recognized.
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