Wish I Knew Myself
Unveiling Hidden Reflections: Wish I Knew Myself by Sloan Irving
Lyrics
Throw me over your shoulder
Expressing a desire to be carried or supported emotionally.
Tell me I am the most beautiful thing
Seeking affirmation of beauty and importance.
Can you remember
Questioning if the listener can recall shared memories.
All the songs we used to sing
Reflecting on past shared experiences and songs.
You made a video
Reference to a video created, but unable to watch it.
That I couldn't watch
Feeling emotionally disturbed or conflicted.
Oh, how screwed up am I
Acknowledging personal issues and confusion.
That I couldn't even respond
Unable to respond effectively to a situation.
I wish I knew myself
Expressing a wish for self-understanding.
So I could tell you how I feel
Desire to communicate true feelings if self-aware.
But instead, I'm always hiding
Admitting a tendency to hide emotions.
I see clowns in all the mirrors
Seeing flaws and absurdities in oneself.
I'm a stalker
Admitting to obsessive behavior.
You look happy
Observing the happiness of the listener.
Now the clowns are looking at me
Feeling judged or scrutinized by others (clowns).
And they're laughing
Experiencing ridicule or mockery from others.
You said I wasn't there
Acknowledging absence during a crucial time.
When you needed me the most
Expressing regret for not being there when needed.
Now I wish I could call on you
Desire to reconnect with the listener.
But you walked me through
Feeling abandoned or betrayed.
And you've thrown away those shoes
Reference to discarded metaphorical "shoes" causing distress.
Now they haunt me
Regret and haunting memories of past actions.
Hanging on a line
Symbolic imagery of being suspended or undecided.
Mark the place where I left you behind
Marking a point of separation or departure.
I wish I knew myself
Reiterating the desire for self-awareness.
So I could tell you how I feel
Expressing the longing to convey genuine emotions.
But instead I'm always running
Running away from self-reflection or facing emotions.
I see clowns in all the mirrors
Recurring theme of perceiving oneself negatively.
I'm a stalker
Admitting to intrusive or obsessive behavior.
You look happy
Observing the apparent happiness of the listener.
Now the clowns are looking at me
Feeling judged or mocked by others (clowns).
And they're laughing
Experiencing ridicule or mockery from others.
I hope I never make the same mistakes
Expressing a hope to avoid repeating past mistakes.
'Cause these clowns are laughing in my face
Acknowledging the presence of external judgment.
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