Lyrics
After all the tears I left on my pillow case
Reflecting on past sorrow expressed through tears left on the pillow
And all the love notes written in your name
Memories of affection conveyed through notes addressed to the person
All I’ve seen is tons of pain
All experiences have been overshadowed by immense emotional distress
Along with heart ache
Accompanied by profound emotional pain
As I lay my head down each and every night
Contemplation during nightly rest, seeking clarity about life
I try to re-think my life
An attempt to understand life's complexities
But I can’t seem to figure why
Difficulty comprehending the constant presence of the person
Your always there by my side
The person remains a consistent presence despite the confusion
And I can’t tell
Uncertainty about the person's influence, whether positive or negative
If your good or bad for me
Doubt about the impact of the person on one's life
What I’m supposed to do
A feeling of being lost, unsure of actions and identity
Who I’m supposed to be
Questioning personal identity and purpose
Everything always used to be so clear
Previously, everything seemed straightforward and understandable
So see through to me
Things used to be transparent and easy to comprehend
Behind all the suffering you put me through
Behind the trials caused by the person
My hearts a million pieces on the floor
Feeling emotionally shattered
I’m lying dying trying to cover pain
Struggling while experiencing unprecedented pain
I’ve never felt before
The intensity of pain is unfamiliar
So I toss and turn and roll and run around
Restedless movements trying to cope and escape from distress
Try to bottle up the scares and the ache
Attempting to hide emotional wounds
Licking the bruises slapping the band aids on the wounds to heal
Using temporary solutions to ease the pain and heal
Try to make my soul whole again
Striving to mend the inner self
And I can’t tell
Reiteration of uncertainty about the person's influence
If your good or bad for me
Unsure whether the person is beneficial or detrimental
What I’m supposed to do
Confusion about the right course of action
Who I’m supposed to be
Questioning personal identity and role
Everything always used to be so clear
Previously, life seemed straightforward and clear
So see through to me
Things used to be easily understandable
No
Strongly rejecting closeness or interaction
Don’t
Urgent plea to stay away
Come near me
Expressing a distance from the person due to personal growth
Cause I’m not that girl no more
A declaration of change, not the same person anymore
Cause honey I don’t love you no more
An affirmation of moving past romantic feelings
And I can’t tell
Reiteration of uncertainty about the person's influence
If your good or bad for me
Unsure whether the person is beneficial or detrimental
What I’m supposed to do
Confusion about the right course of action
Who I’m supposed to be
Questioning personal identity and role
Everything always used to be so clear
Previously, life seemed straightforward and clear
So see through to me
Things used to be easily understandable
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