This Is What 21 Feels Like
Navigating Love and Change at 21: A Journey of Endings and New Beginnings
Lyrics
I moved into my first apartment
I have just moved into my first apartment.
First night spilled red wine on the carpet
On the first night in my new place, I accidentally spilled red wine on the carpet.
I guess this is what 21 feels like
I reflect on the experiences of being 21, suggesting uncertainty and learning.
I left before the party started
I left a social gathering before it even began, possibly to avoid emotional pain.
Got scared you’d be there, break my heart and
Fearful of encountering someone, I left to prevent heartbreak.
I guess this is what 21 feels like
This situation captures the essence of what being 21 feels like for me.
I know that it’s over
I acknowledge that a relationship is over.
I go home, call it closure
I return home to find closure in the situation.
Feels like our story ends before it begins again and again
The cycle of our story seems to end before it has a chance to fully develop, repeating itself.
I know that I love you
I recognize my love for someone.
But I need something brand new
Despite my love, I crave something new and different.
So I’ll let it end and try to begin again
I decide to let the current situation end and embrace the opportunity to start anew.
I get sick of staying busy
I grow weary of keeping myself occupied.
But get more sick wishing you were with me
Despite being busy, I still long for the presence of the person I care about.
I guess this is what moving on feels like
This emotional conflict signifies the experience of moving on.
I do the dishes and the laundry
I engage in routine tasks like doing dishes and laundry.
So I’ll stop checking if you’ve called me
I try to stop constantly checking for communication from the person.
I guess this is what moving on feels like
This signifies the emotional process of moving on from a relationship.
I know that it’s over
Despite acknowledging the end, I still desire emotional closeness.
But I still want you closer
The repeating pattern suggests an ongoing struggle for closure and connection.
Feels like our story ends before it begins again and again
The cycle of our story seems stuck in a loop, unable to progress.
I know that I love you
I reiterate my love for the person, but change is needed.
But I need something brand new
Seeking a fresh start, I acknowledge the necessity for something new.
So I’ll let it end and try to begin again
I decide to let go of the current situation and embrace the opportunity to start anew.
I wonder if you want me still
I contemplate if the person still desires me despite the changes in my life.
‘Cause you know I always will
Expressing a persistent love for the person, even amid personal changes.
And the more that I change you’re the one thing I can’t change
Despite evolving, the person remains a constant in my life that I can't alter.
I wonder if you see my eyes
I question if the person sees the emotions in my eyes when they sleep.
When you go to sleep at night
My feelings persist, even as the person sleeps, indicating emotional continuity.
‘Cause the more that I change know I’m still in the same place
Despite changes, I feel stuck in the same emotional place, unable to move forward.
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