how it ends
Life's Lullaby: Navigating Pain, Addiction, and Broken Wings in 'How It Ends'
Lyrics
I tried throwing up last night when I was drunk 'cause I felt sick
Expressing a desperate attempt to cope with feeling sick by inducing vomiting while intoxicated.
Woke up on my porch with a crack in my phone and I felt like shit
Awakening on the porch with a damaged phone, reflecting a rough night and a sense of physical and emotional distress.
This thing never worked no matter how I tried to make it fit
Describing an ongoing struggle or relationship that doesn't work, despite persistent efforts to make it fit.
Like the wrong pliers or the size of a screwdriver I grind down the bit
Using a metaphor of using the wrong tools, illustrating the difficulty in fixing or resolving the issue.
I'm the oldest son in my family my mom wants me to have a few kids
Acknowledging familial expectations to have children, but personal challenges may hinder fulfilling this expectation.
But I'm one drug away from being fucked up homeless living under a bridge
Expressing vulnerability and the fear of becoming homeless due to personal struggles, possibly with substance abuse.
In eighth grade I got high and burned my leg with lit matchsticks
Recounting a self-destructive incident from eighth grade involving drug use and harm.
I guess I liked the pain or something but that's as far as it went
Exploring a past inclination towards pain but emphasizing that it didn't escalate beyond a certain point.
Life is kinda like a lullaby from when we were kids
Comparing life to a lullaby, evoking mixed emotions of happiness and sadness, reminiscent of childhood.
It's happy and sad at the same damn time and you always know how it ends
Conveying a fatalistic perspective on life, suggesting that the outcome is predictable, and it involves both joy and sorrow.
You said work was fine you're just pretending to like me but I don't get upset
Addressing a perceived lack of sincerity in someone's expression of contentment, anticipating disappointment.
I'll just wait until you leave around nine and then I'll complain to my friends
Planning to share grievances with friends once the person expressing false happiness leaves, highlighting a coping mechanism.
I tried throwing up last night 'cause I was drunk and I felt sick
Repeating the earlier attempt to alleviate sickness through vomiting, emphasizing a recurring struggle.
Woke up on my porch in sweat stained clothes and I felt like shit
Reiterating the aftermath of a difficult night, waking up feeling unwell and disheveled.
I'm a butterfly with torn off wings that I use as sails
Describing oneself as a metaphorical butterfly with damaged wings, symbolizing fragility and vulnerability.
I'm a drop of blood in the water I'm spreading thin until I'm all clear
Using imagery of a drop of blood in water to depict a gradual, spreading emotional impact until clarity is achieved.
Life is kinda like a lullaby from when I was a kid
Repeating the comparison of life to a lullaby, emphasizing the enduring combination of happiness and sadness.
It's happy and sad at the same damn time and I always know how it ends
Reiterating the fatalistic perspective on life, emphasizing the inevitability of knowing how it ends.
You said work was fine you're just pretending to like me but I don't get upset
Echoing doubts about the sincerity of someone's positive remarks about the speaker, avoiding emotional upset.
You said I'm alright but I'm not your type I could tell in the first five minutes
Acknowledging a perceived lack of compatibility with the person, evident from the initial moments of interaction.
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