Lyrics
Haven't felt the same happiness since elementary
Haven't experienced the same joy since elementary school.
People tryna lock me in creative penitentiaries
Feeling restricted creatively, as if confined in a creative prison.
My high school experience started fucking with me mentally
High school experiences are negatively affecting mental well-being.
Cant see ahead of me
Feeling uncertain about the future, unable to see what lies ahead.
Embedded in my head is thoughts of feeling
Constant thoughts and emotions are ingrained in the mind.
Empty
Emotionally empty.
Thoughts so sick
Deep and troubling thoughts.
Thats why I where the mask often
Wearing a metaphorical mask to conceal true emotions.
I get lost when I spit
Feeling lost and disconnected during the act of expressing oneself (spitting).
Everything's dumb
Everything seems pointless or unintelligent.
I'm feeling numb
Numbness and emotional detachment.
Hating my presence
Disliking one's own presence.
Like a bad Christmas
Negative feelings akin to a disappointing Christmas.
Is this hell
Questioning if the current situation feels like hell.
Oh well
Acceptance of a challenging situation with an indifferent attitude.
Im dismissive
Dismissive of external influences or opinions.
Tell me
Seeking validation or confirmation from others.
If I'm dreaming
Questioning the reality of the current situation.
Thats what Im wishing
Expressing a desire for a different, preferable reality.
I cant find a human I relate to
Struggling to find people with whom one can connect on a deep level.
I cant find a person that don't hate who
Difficulty finding acceptance, experiencing widespread negativity from others.
I am
Repeated affirmation of self-identity.
I am
-I am
-S S H V D O W
Spelling out the artist's name, possibly emphasizing self-identity.
I cant find the will to love you
Struggling to find the motivation or desire to love someone.
S S H V D O W
Reiteration of the artist's name.
I don't know what this has come to
Expressing uncertainty about the current situation.
S S H V D O W
Repetition of the struggle to find the will to love someone.
I cant find the will to love you
Reiteration of the artist's name.
S S H V D O W
Continued struggle to find the will to love someone.
I don't know what this has come to
Repeating uncertainty about the situation's nature and implications.
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