Priority Disorder
Embracing Redemption: Confronting the Struggles of Priority Disorder
Lyrics
I don’t need your answers I’m holding out for a better
I am rejecting your answers and waiting for something better.
Gotta gotta chase another opportunity
I must actively pursue another chance or option.
I need it like I need the air I breathe
I desire it as much as I need the air I breathe.
Cut down by the torture Priority Disorder
Feeling overwhelmed and affected by a tormenting Priority Disorder.
All or nothing painful and do whatever you please
Choosing between extremes, facing pain, and doing whatever one wants.
But once you’ve entered you may never leave
Once you get involved, escaping may not be possible.
Think I was paralyzed and hypnotized by the visions of grandeur
Experiencing a state of paralysis and being captivated by grand visions.
And to no surprise it seems I bargained more than I planned for
Realizing that the bargains made were more than anticipated.
Nobody tells you about the times that are rough
No one informs you about tough times that may come.
You have to trust in those you keep around to never give up
Trust in those around you to persevere through challenges.
Forgive me
An expression seeking forgiveness.
I sold my soul
I have compromised my integrity or values for personal gain.
I found it fitting cause I never even felt what it means to feel whole
Choosing to sell one's soul, feeling incomplete and detached.
I think I’d rather feel nothing at all
Prefer feeling nothing over dealing with emotions.
Letting go is harder than you know
Releasing or moving on is more challenging than anticipated.
But it will set you free to choose your destiny
But letting go allows freedom to shape one's destiny.
Every time you think you got a grip life takes a 180 and maybe
Life can drastically change when you think you have control.
If I had grown up feeling less alone I could’ve built for myself a better man than shown
If I had a different upbringing, I could have become a better person.
I am a turtle without its shell, I didn’t play my cards very well
Feeling vulnerable and exposed like a turtle without its shell.
And in a moment of indecision I damned my own soul straight to hell
Made a regrettable decision that led to personal damnation.
Somehow I feel what I now lack
Recognizing what is missing and expressing the intent to reclaim it.
And I intend to take it back
Determined to retrieve what was lost or taken.
Take it back
An emphatic repetition of the resolve to take back what belongs.
All of the times I lied claiming that I was fine, gritting my teeth behind determination
Admitting to past lies about well-being, masking struggles with determination.
Pushed to the wayside, with all my strength I’ll attack
Being pushed aside but vowing to confront challenges with strength.
Because I’m taking it back
Reclaiming what was lost or compromised with determination.
Nobody tells you about the times that are rough
Similar to line 9, emphasizing the lack of warning about difficult times.
You have to trust in those you keep around to never give up
Reiterating the importance of trusting those around you during challenges.
But now I’ve opened up a side of me that I’ve never seen
Discovering a previously unseen side of oneself by believing in possibilities.
And all I had to do was believe
Achieving personal growth or change by embracing belief.
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