Back to Bed
Yearning for Retreat
Lyrics
I don't recall much or not at all
I have difficulty remembering or don't remember much at all.
I stand up, you watch me fall
I attempt to stand, but you witness my failure.
I'm breaking, but only I can see
I'm breaking emotionally, but only I am aware of it.
And I can't get myself to stop
I can't bring myself to stop.
Until my thinking switches off
I continue until my thoughts shut down.
And all my sentences are blurring into one
All my sentences are blending into one another.
You phone me to get it straight
You call me to clarify things.
Words are coming way too late
Words are coming too late in the conversation.
I tell you what's been done
I share with you what has happened; it's my mistake.
It's my mistake
I acknowledge the error.
No longer fussed at how I come across
I no longer care about how I appear to others.
My agency is lost
I've lost control over my actions.
And I don't filter what I say
I speak without filtering my words.
And now my feet they feel like lead
My feet feel heavy, burdensome.
And there was something in my head
There was something troubling in my thoughts.
Won't you take me back to bed
Take me back to bed, let's pretend we never left.
And just pretend we never left?
Suggesting a desire to escape from reality.
I'd be lying if I said I'm feeling worse than I expected
I would be dishonest if I claimed to feel worse than expected.
Ask me how I'm feeling but your question gets deflected
Your questions about my feelings are avoided.
Tell me that I need to change
Someone suggests that I need to change.
Don't you know it's been suggested?
(Repeated line)
It's still the same me but acting in a different way
I am still myself, but my actions have changed.
Behind the facade
Behind the outward appearance.
You know I'm finding it hard
Finding it difficult to maintain a facade.
I wouldn't listen to the things that I said yesterday
Ignoring the things said yesterday.
I was thinking differently
I had different thoughts at that time.
And now my feet they feel like lead
Feeling burdened in my steps.
And there was something that I said
There was something said that troubles me.
Won't you take me back to bed
Desire to return to a state of comfort in bed.
And just pretend we never left?
(Repeated line)
Can we pretend we never left?
-Cos I'd rather just forget
Prefer to forget rather than be reminded of past words.
So don't remind me what was said
Request not to be reminded of past words.
Can we just stay here instead ?
Desire to stay in the current state instead of confronting issues.
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