My Demise
Eternal Struggle: Navigating Life's Burdens and Blessings
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The thought and the chance. To lose or perhaps to gain
The contemplation of the possibility of either losing or gaining something.
A new found worth or disgust. None the wiser could know
The newfound value or revulsion is obscure and not easily understood by anyone.
Why is it my burden or blessing
Questioning why the situation is either a burden or a boon.
To be the one to go through this loss
Being designated as the individual who experiences this loss.
To lose or gain a chance at living,
The dilemma of potentially gaining or losing an opportunity to live.
Why must I be this barer of such burdens?
Questioning the reason for bearing such heavy burdens.
To be this fortunate or cursed
Feeling uncertain about whether the situation is a stroke of luck or a curse.
I know not the difference with such weight on my shoulders
Being unable to discern the distinction due to the immense weight carried.
Again I must continue on the quest given to me
Continuing a quest or journey assigned, regardless of personal will.
It is not a question, it is the answer - I will be the victor
Asserting determination to succeed, considering it not a query but the resolution.
I'll die too many times and not have learned
Facing numerous hardships without internalizing the lessons they impart.
The lessons forced upon me
Forced to undergo teachings or experiences without personal choice.
I live not for myself
Living not solely for oneself but for a larger purpose in a distressing environment.
But for some greater good in this hell we call home
Existing for a greater cause amidst the unpleasantness of life.
I no longer exist here among men
Feeling detached from human existence.
I've succumb to an unknown force
Surrendering to an unknown, overwhelming force.
I't s reduced me to nothing
Being diminished to nothingness by this force.
I am not here even now, where am I? As I still breath
Questioning one's presence despite the act of breathing.
I'm not alive, not to feel. But rather to suffer and die
Existence devoid of the ability to feel but to endure suffering and eventual demise.
A lifetime that spans eternity.
A life that seems infinite yet filled with suffering.
Too strong to selfishly close the book of life
Refusing to prematurely end life for personal reasons.
This terrible nightmare that I'm living must be all in my head
Considering the distressing reality as possibly existing solely within one's mind.
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