Lyrics
Stay up all night, watching TV
Expressing staying awake late at night, possibly avoiding something.
My fear of the future, it suffocates me
Feeling overwhelmed by fear related to the future.
Wondering what I could be doing instead
Reflecting on missed opportunities and wondering about alternatives.
Sleep on the couch, I can't make it to bed
Struggling to go to bed, possibly due to unresolved issues.
The drugs paralyze me, but it feels so familiar
Describing the numbing effect of drugs, despite their familiarity.
I think I'll just sleep through another long winter
Contemplating avoiding life during difficult times, like winter.
I had a lot of growing up to do
Acknowledging a need for personal growth.
Now that it's done, I've got no excuse
Completing the process of growing up with no more excuses.
I think you're not gonna like me when you get to know me
Expecting others not to like the speaker once they know them.
I am just a consequence of you being lonely
Claiming to be a consequence of someone else's loneliness.
I am a bad human being
Self-identification as a bad human being.
I don't ever say what I mean
Admitting difficulty in expressing genuine thoughts.
If I keep it at a distance, it can't hurt
Keeping emotions at a distance to avoid pain.
Ha, you'd think I'd learn
Admitting a failure to learn from past mistakes.
I am a bad human being
Reiterating self-perception as a bad human being.
I don't ever say what I mean
Continuing difficulty in expressing true feelings.
All of the bridges I have burned
Referring to damaged relationships and connections.
You'd think I'd learn
Expressing a realization of not learning from past actions.
I always imagine the worst and it shows
Tendency to imagine negative outcomes and its impact.
I've destroyed everything that I've held close
Acknowledging a pattern of destroying close relationships.
Maybe I'll just pack it up and go home
Considering leaving and avoiding confrontation.
Disappear in the night so no one will know
Contemplating disappearing to escape scrutiny.
My demons, they hold me in a warm embrace
Describing inner struggles symbolized by demons.
I can't fight them off and I can't escape
Feeling trapped and unable to resist internal struggles.
If they leave me, I'll be by myself
Fearing loneliness if inner demons leave.
Tell me what really feels more like hell
Pondering the relative difficulty of loneliness and inner struggles.
No, you're not gonna like me when you get to know me
Expecting negative reactions from others upon getting to know the speaker.
For now, I am just a consequence of you being lonely
Temporary identity as a consequence of someone else's loneliness.
I am a bad human being
Reiteration of self-identification as a bad human being.
I don't ever say what I mean
Continued struggle to express genuine thoughts and feelings.
If I keep it at a distance, it can't hurt
Repeating the strategy of keeping emotions distant to avoid pain.
Ha, you'd think I'd learn
Recognizing a failure to learn from past experiences.
I am a bad human being
Reaffirmation of self-identification as a bad human being.
I don't ever say what I mean
Continued difficulty in expressing genuine thoughts.
All of the bridges I have burned
Reflection on the consequences of burned bridges.
You'd think I'd learn
Acknowledging a lack of learning from past mistakes.
I am a bad human being
Repetition of self-perception as a bad human being.
I don't ever say what I mean
Continued challenge in expressing true thoughts and emotions.
If I keep it at a distance, it can't hurt
Reiterating the strategy of keeping emotions at a distance.
Ha, you'd think I'd learn
Admitting a failure to learn from past mistakes, with a touch of irony.
I am a bad human being
Affirmation of self-identification as a bad human being.
I don't ever say what I mean
Repeating difficulty in expressing genuine thoughts.
All of the bridges I have burned
Reflection on the consequences of burned bridges, emphasizing a lack of learning.
You'd think I'd learn
Final repetition of self-perception as a bad human being.
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