Lyrics
I'm not willowing
I am not giving in to sorrow or despair
I'm straightening my tone
I am adjusting my attitude or expression
And I've been strangling
I have been feeling constrained or restricted
But I'm surfing through hope
Despite challenges, I am navigating through optimism
And all the people clap their hands, and what do you do?
Observing applause from others, questioning my response
And all the people clap their hands, and what do you do?
Repetition of the previous line, emphasizing self-reflection
I've got a thousand knives
Symbolic mention of numerous challenges or obstacles
That means a thousand tries
Indicating multiple attempts or efforts
I've got a thousand knives
Repetition, reinforcing the idea of numerous attempts
That means a thousand tries
Continuation of expressing persistent efforts
To set it off
Striving to initiate something significant
And everyday I'm coming down with something new
Experiencing new challenges regularly
But could this be the way
Considering a disruptive change in perspective
I interrupt the view
Possibly causing a disturbance in the established order
The headaches
Referencing physical and emotional distress
The shakes
Reflecting on the difficulties and hardships
The way we break
Describing the process of breaking down
It's all I know
Expressing familiarity with adversity
I am alone
Feeling isolated or detached from others
I'm on an anxious throne
Experiencing anxiety in a position of authority
But you, your health, your stolen wealth, the way you are
Commenting on someone's well-being, possessions, and character
It's a cry for help
Suggesting a cry for assistance from someone in distress
Such a lonely life
Describing a life marked by solitude and hardship
And I've not been myself
Feeling out of character or not true to oneself
In three weeks time
Referring to a specific period of personal struggle
But you've said that before
Questioning the sincerity of past statements
And in a way it helps my mind
Finding solace or clarity in revisiting the past
Go back in time
Nostalgically reflecting on a time when everything was fine
When I'm alright
Returning to a state of well-being
I'm working all day, crying all night
Juxtaposing work and emotional distress
Got my dress shoes on just to feed my kid
Maintaining appearances for the sake of responsibility
No I'm not upset, I'm just on edge
Denying emotional turmoil outwardly
And what can be done about the day by day?
Raising questions about coping with daily challenges
I've got a doctor's note from a cackling crow
Introducing a symbolic authority figure
My hair's been chopped but it's all f**ked up
Physical appearance reflecting internal struggles
And I'm waiting til noon just to eat my lunch
Waiting for a routine activity with a sense of anticipation
And what can done about the day by day?
Reiteration of questioning daily existence
The garage door's closed, and the front door locked
Symbolic isolation and communication breakdown
Got a message for the wife, but she's still drunk
Difficulty in communication due to intoxication
It's been thirteen years, and we haven't talked much
Long-standing communication issues in a relationship
What can be done about the day by day?
Continuing to question the nature of daily life
It's a terminal case, I'll be dead in three months
Contemplating a severe and possibly fatal condition
Got my jumpsuit on and I'm ready to work
Prepared for the inevitability of a challenging task
No I'm not upset, I'm just on edge
Denying emotional turmoil outwardly, repeating line #32
And what can be done about the
Unfinished line, likely continuation of previous themes
I am not willowing, I'm straightening my time
Reiteration of not succumbing to despair, repeating line #1
And I've been suffering, and now I'm taking control
Acknowledging past suffering and asserting control
And now I'm taking control
Reasserting control over personal circumstances
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