Lyrics
I saved a cigarette like the ones I used to smoke back then
I preserved a cigarette reminiscent of my past smoking habits.
When I was begging the universe to let you live
During a difficult time, I pleaded with the universe to spare your life.
And the same song brings back the pain
A specific song triggers the return of emotional pain.
I am sorry but it's the only way now to keep my promise
Apology for resorting to smoking as the only means to uphold a promise.
The snow was falling over our little, boring town
Snowfall over our mundane town during our carefree seventeen years.
We were seventeen then, no worries, no frown
A time of no worries or frowns.
But at the end of that winter I realised
Realization at the end of that winter that life's challenges were imminent.
That the hard part of life was about to start
The acknowledgement that the difficult phase of life was about to commence.
And I lost more friends since then and I
Experienced loss of more friends over time.
Felt lonely from time to time and cried rivers for them
Periodic loneliness and shedding tears for lost friends.
Now I am in the same small room
Currently occupying the same confined space.
With the same smell of smoke
Presence of the familiar scent of smoke in the room.
The same feeling of choke
Experiencing a similar sensation of suffocation.
Missing friends with whom I wanna have a to talk
Longing to converse with absent friends.
But I can't complain
An acceptance of the situation without complaining.
I breathe, I walk, I smile, I cry
Engaging in the basic aspects of life, including breathing, walking, smiling, and crying.
I can't complain
Reiteration of the inability to complain despite life's challenges.
I am alive
A declaration of being alive despite the hardships.
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