Finally
Discovering Inner Conflict: The Ateliers' 'Finally' Meaning
Lyrics
I'm divided split in two
I am conflicted and torn into two parts.
What I don't think I feel, nothing new
My emotions and thoughts are not aligned, and this is not a new experience.
Tried to cut off the limbs that disobeyed
I attempted to detach myself from the aspects that were not following orders or rules.
Whatever made it so I wouldn't stay
Whatever caused me to leave or not remain, I tried to eliminate.
That wasn't me you saw
The person you saw was not truly me.
I swore up and down
I emphatically promised.
Please look away I said
I requested you to turn your gaze away.
And she won't come back out again
Despite my plea, the true self won't reemerge.
She relishes in my discomfort
Another part of me finds joy in my discomfort.
And opens up like I wish I could
This part opens up in a way I wish I could.
Did you see her there lit up in the dark
Did you notice her illuminated in the darkness?
While I sat up there
While I stayed away, avoiding aspects of myself.
Avoiding every part of me
I avoided parts of myself that seemed like a dream.
That felt like a dream
I look over my shoulder
I glance behind me.
She's watching, waiting patiently
She observes, waiting patiently.
She's leading a rebellion
She is leading a rebellion.
And holding out her hand
She extends her hand.
She terrifies me to my core
She instills deep fear in me.
It's time to meet at last
It is time for us to finally meet.
Take up the same space
To coexist in the same space.
See how it feels
Experience how it feels.
To wake up in the same place as me
To wake up in the same place as me.
Finally
Finally.
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