True
Struggling with Truth: A Song of Broken Promises
Lyrics
I find it so hard to be true
I struggle to be honest and genuine
And all these lies I'm telling you
I'm confessing to telling untruths
Are little anchors in my chest
Lies feel like burdens in my emotions
That pull us down into this mess
The lies are causing problems in our relationship
I find it easy to distract
I find it easy to divert attention
Just as soon as you turn your back
I'll disappear when you're not watching
I'll be gone again
I'll leave again without notice
I find it so hard to be true
It's challenging for me to be faithful
And all these secrets, I keep from you
I'm keeping secrets from you
Are like a blackness in my heart
These secrets are causing darkness in my heart
That only tears us both apart
The secrets are causing emotional pain
I find it easy to pretend
I find it easy to pretend everything is fine
That we're not heading for our end
Pretending that our relationship isn't in trouble
That's why I'm telling you
That's why I'm confessing now
I built a wall, I cut you off
I created a barrier, cutting you off
Now there's no lies that's gonna fix this up
No lies can repair the damage
I played the saint and a saint I ain't
I pretended to be virtuous, but I'm not
Now all the hurt is here again, here again
The pain has returned
I find it so hard to be true
Being truthful is a challenge for me
But I'm gonna try my best for you
I will try my best to be honest for you
And every distance that we've known
The distance between us will fade
Will disappear before too long
The obstacles will disappear soon
And every line we've ever drawn
All the boundaries we set will vanish
Will be erased before we're gone
They will be erased before we leave
And this I swear to you
I promise this to you
I built a wall, I cut you off
I built a wall, shutting you out
Now there's no lie that's gonna fix this hurt
No lie can mend this pain
I played the saint, I cursed your name
I acted saintly, but I cursed you
Now there's no one but myself to blame, that you're gone
I'm to blame for your departure
Could I have put it this way
Could I have expressed myself differently?
It's wishing only
It's a desire only
To see it's never too late
Realizing it's never too late
I'm feeling it work for me
I feel it working positively for me
And every word that you say
Your words affect me deeply
I got my heart out for you
I'm vulnerable and open for you
And only wish that you'd wait
I hope you'll wait for me
Till I was waving away
Until I'm ready to let go
I know that I may have you
I acknowledge that I may have lost you
There's no more fire left in me
I feel emotionally drained
I'm breaking down all the walls
I'm tearing down the emotional walls you built
You slowly built around me
Walls that separated us
Why do you ask for my trust
Why do you seek my trust when you don't deserve it?
When you're not worthy of it
It's challenging for me to adapt
I find it hard to adjust
I need to gain confidence in myself
Till I get it from me
I find it difficult until I find it within me
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