Disappear
Vanishing Echoes: A Tale of Futility and Liberation
Lyrics
You and I can’t get much closer
You and I are very close, but...
In spite of what you want
Despite your desires or wishes...
I’m done explaining
I won't continue explaining myself.
I’m broke at best
I am emotionally and mentally exhausted at best.
Non-existent.
I feel like I don't even exist.
I lay me down to sleep
I lay down, trying to rest...
And disappear
...and I want to vanish or escape.
Why is it you have a question
Why do you question everything I do?
For every single thing I do
Your scrutiny encompasses every action of mine.
Why is it you say you love me
You claim to love me...
Nothing’s ever good enough for you
...yet nothing I do seems satisfactory to you.
“What’s the matter now?”
There's a sense of frustration or annoyance with your question "What's wrong now?"
“Have another one of these”
Encouragement to have another drink, possibly to ease tension or stress.
“This will take the edge off”
Assuming the drink will help alleviate problems.
And I never knew what it would be
I didn't anticipate the outcome of the situation.
Decisions and decisions to be made
There are numerous decisions ahead, leading to uncertainty.
They’ll tell you what you said and what you did
Others will narrate what was said and done, potentially distorting reality.
To break from the futility and run
The desire to break away from the pointless cycle and escape.
You speak through comparison
You communicate through comparisons, not directly.
You speak in tongues
Your communication is unclear or cryptic.
You listen suspiciously for gaps my adaptation
You listen intently for discrepancies in my adaptation to situations.
You have no magic touch
You don't have a special or comforting effect on me.
Please stop trying
Requesting you to cease your attempts.
Sucking me dry
You're draining my energy or resources.
And I never seemed to get it right
I never seem to meet your expectations.
It’s like a shadow hanging over me
Feeling overshadowed by a persistent feeling or situation.
You were the first
You were my first and last experience in this context.
You were the last
Extremes—beginning and end.
If there’s a God
If there's a higher power...
Release me from my past
...please free me from my past and its burdens.
I lay me down to sleep
I lay down again, seeking escape or relief.
And disappear
Desire to disappear or escape further emphasized.
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