Lyrics
Caught up in my feelings as I lay awake
Expressing emotional turmoil while lying awake.
Gotta make a killin' fore' I fade away
Feeling the pressure to achieve success before disappearing.
Stressin' all the little things everyday
Dealing with stress caused by small everyday concerns.
Finna roll the dice I'mma make a way
Ready to take risks to create a path forward.
(Yeah) Sad world we all seem to be lost in
Describing a world filled with sadness and confusion.
Running from myself got me feeling exhausted
Running away from oneself, feeling drained.
It's really hard to live when you know you dead inside
Struggling to live meaningfully while feeling emotionally numb.
They tell me to keep my head up, and focus on better times but
Receiving advice to stay positive, but finding it challenging.
I'm still using this to cope with depression
Using music as a coping mechanism for depression.
Quit doing therapy, it wasn't really helping
Previous therapy attempts were not helpful.
But no matter what happens I'll never ignore the blessings
Commitment to acknowledging and appreciating blessings.
Look myself in the eyes, staring at my own reflection (Uh)
Confronting oneself by looking into their own eyes.
Crazy moments like having conversations with Marco
Recalling significant moments, like conversations with Marco.
I miss the couple days when we hung out in Toronto
Nostalgic about the past days spent in Toronto with a friend.
Told me I'mma blossom by the time I'm nineteen
Expectation to mature and succeed by the age of nineteen.
Experience real life, and focus on rhyme schemes
Focusing on real-life experiences and improving artistic skills.
Said he saw his younger self inside of me
Recognition of similarities with an older mentor.
Something at the end of the road, there's gotta be (Uh)
Belief that there's something significant at the end of the journey.
It seem like everything is good cuz I'm gaining fans
Experiencing success in gaining fans but feeling disconnected.
But I'm too caught up with myself, losing all my fam
Personal struggle with self-identity and family relationships.
People only care about The Medic, and not Ahmed
Noticing a focus on the artist persona rather than the person.
Appreciate the messages, but I'm more than an artist
Asserting individuality beyond the public image.
They gon' tell me that they love me all up in my comments
Receiving love in comments but seeking genuine happiness.
But that don't make me happy if I'm really being honest
Acknowledging that external validation doesn't guarantee happiness.
Talking to the voice inside, wonder if I'll ever fill this void inside (Yeah)
Engaging in internal dialogue, questioning the possibility of fulfillment.
They keep saying that you gon' be fine
Receiving reassurance from others but still struggling.
Just put your head down and work man, enjoy the ride (Yeah)
Encouragement to work hard and find joy in the journey.
Can't sleep, why my ass always paranoid
Unable to sleep due to persistent anxiety.
Hits deep, type of thing that I can't avoid
An intense emotional experience that can't be avoided.
Wake up in the morning feeling like crap
Starting the day feeling low but driven by the need for financial stability.
But I gotta get this bread, we just need it like that (Yeah)
Motivated to work hard for financial reasons.
Tryna get my mind right, but my head don't
Struggling to find mental balance despite efforts.
Tryna keep pushing hard, but my legs won't
Continuing to push forward despite physical exhaustion.
Constant reminders, it won't be long
Constant reminders of challenges, knowing it won't last forever.
And if you hearing this, you probably why I wrote this song
Addressing the listener, suggesting the song is a personal expression.
Always
Reiteration of emotional struggles.
Caught up in my feelings as I lay awake
Repeating the theme of being caught in emotional turmoil while awake.
Gotta make a killin' fore' I fade away
Reaffirming the drive to achieve success before fading away.
Stressin' all the little things everyday
Continuing to stress over small things on a daily basis.
Finna roll the dice I'mma make a way
Expressing determination to take risks and find a way forward.
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