Surged
Embracing the Waves: The Pariah's Poignant Journey of Self-Discovery
Lyrics
I locked myself in so long ago
I isolated myself a long time ago
I swallowed the keys, they turned my stomach to stone
I internalized my problems, causing emotional distress
I know the tides will rise again
Awareness that challenges will resurface
And I will be standing here, waiting
Ready to confront challenges with determination
Please save me from here
Plea for rescue or assistance
Can you hear, the waves are coming in
Recognition of approaching difficulties
Cause I'll be standing on the ground
Commitment to face challenges steadfastly
No matter how deep I sink I won't leave on my own
Determined to endure hardships without giving up
And once the water has reached my chin
Acceptance of escalating problems
I won't beg for help again
Refusal to seek help despite challenges
It's better this way
Belief that current situation is preferable
'Cause it's always been like this
Assertion that difficulties are a longstanding reality
Explanations won't lead anywhere
Doubt about the effectiveness of explanations
Take my hand, I promised you I won't change
Commitment to remain unchanged for a promise's sake
It's better this way 'cause it's always been like this
Reiteration that the current state is preferable
I will keep holding on to a mask
Clutching onto a facade or false identity
In a matter of self-protection we hide in a shell
Choosing self-isolation for self-preservation
To keep every impact from our soul
Building emotional barriers to shield oneself
At first we feel invincible, but once the waves come rolling in
Initial feeling of strength diminishes when challenges arise
It turns out we can't move
Realization of being immobilized by difficulties
It turns out that we can't move
Confirmation of inability to move forward
Once the water has reached my chin
Repetition of the decision not to seek help during challenges
I won't beg for help again
Refusal to express emotions, fearing vulnerability
Expressing your emotions is a knife against my skin
Emotional expression feels like self-harm
I feel it breaking in and I never learned to swim
Sensation of emotional breakdown without the ability to cope
Helpless
Feeling powerless in the face of challenges
Can you hear the waves are coming in
Acknowledgment of impending difficulties
And once the water has reached my chin
Reiteration of not seeking help despite challenges
I won't beg for help again
Commitment not to beg for assistance again
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