Emilia
Unveiling Myself: A Journey of Self-Reflection in Emilia's Melody
Lyrics
I am a thief of my own identity
I am acknowledging that I've stolen my own sense of self.
Lost myself to who I thought you were in my head
I lost myself by idealizing who I believed you were in my thoughts.
As evidence straight from the crime scene
There is evidence from the aftermath indicating how I deceived myself, pleading innocence.
Shows how I tricked myself to plead not guilty
I tricked myself into denying guilt, as revealed by the crime scene.
I know I'm a selfish person you see
Acknowledging my selfish nature, often prioritizing myself.
Starting sentences with "I" just to end them with "me"
Starting sentences with "I" but concluding them with a focus on "me."
I'm waking up all alone
I wake up alone, losing both the girl I dream of and my peaceful sleep.
Losing both the girl of my dreams and my sleep
I prioritize my thoughts over hers, leading to a sense of loneliness.
As I put my thoughts first before her own
Reflecting on what we truly had in our relationship.
What did we have honestly?
Questioning the authenticity of our past connection.
Tell me what we had was true
Seeking confirmation that my efforts were genuine and reciprocated.
And that for every single night every single time I did enough for you
Expressing doubt and regret about my past decisions.
But now I'm left questioning "What the hell was I thinking?"
Feeling uncertain about the choices I made in the relationship.
I'm giving up on my old self for you so I can be who you need (Need me to be)
Deciding to let go of my old self to become the person you need.
It doesn't feel right to give our parting gifts
Expressing discomfort in parting and leaving gifts associated with it.
I blew my chance like a candle to the birthday wish
Regretting missed opportunities, comparing it to a failed birthday wish.
My time with you up in flames
Describing the time spent with you as ruined or lost in flames.
And the only trail of smoke points back to myself as the one to blame
Accepting responsibility for the failed relationship, acknowledging self-blame.
I'll honor the time and space that you need
Respecting the need for time and space, acknowledging the lack of control over your decisions.
It's not my decision to make if you think that your life would be better off without me
Recognizing that your life might be better without me and accepting that possibility.
In the mean time this is eating my insides
Expressing internal turmoil during the waiting period.
What did we have honestly?
Reiterating the question about the authenticity of the past relationship.
Tell me what we had was true
Seeking confirmation again about the truthfulness of the past connection.
And that for every single night every single time I did enough for you
Repeating the assertion that I did enough for you in the past.
But now I'm left questioning "What the hell was I thinking?"
Continuing to question past decisions and actions.
I'm giving up on my old self for you so I can be who you need (Need me to be)
Committing to letting go of the old self to meet your needs.
Now that we're done this loss is a wake up call for me
Acknowledging the loss as a wake-up call after the relationship ends.
Thought I did all these things for you but only now do I see
Realizing that the actions done for you were not truly understood until now.
I was in love with the idea of you in my head
Admitting to being in love with an idealized version of you in my thoughts.
Wish I could redo everything to the time we met
Expressing a desire to redo everything from the beginning.
This can't be the way things have to be
Expressing dissatisfaction with the current situation, seeking change.
What did we have honestly?
Reiterating the question about the authenticity of the past relationship.
I know what I need to do
Understanding what needs to be done to address the issues.
I'll take back every single word for every time you hurt to prove that I truly love you
Committing to taking back hurtful words to prove genuine love.
Took your words straight to my heart
Acknowledging the impact of your words on my emotions.
Please know I will see them through
Promise to follow through on changing and improving based on your words.
You taught me that one million "sorry"s are not equal to one "thank you"
Learning the value of gratitude compared to apologies in a relationship.
Emilia
Addressing the person directly, possibly the one the song is dedicated to.
Thank you
Expressing gratitude, possibly for the lessons learned despite the pain.
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