The Deepest Ocean There Is
Journey Through Fear and Freedom
Lyrics
I've been terrified since you walked out the door
The speaker has been frightened or anxious since the departure of someone.
And these were not the lies I told you once before
The speaker acknowledges having previously lied and reflects on the current situation.
This is not the end it's still an outside bet
Despite the circumstances, there is a possibility that it's not the definitive end, though uncertain.
I'm not taking off my wedding ring just yet
The speaker is hesitant to remove their wedding ring, suggesting an unwillingness to let go.
And it's years since I took stock of it
It has been years since the speaker assessed their situation, but little progress seems to have been made.
Seems that it's not come to much
The speaker reflects on the lack of significant development or change.
This is everything I ever wrote
The speaker refers to their entire body of work, implying a sense of disappointment or unfulfillment.
Collapsed into the core
All the efforts and creations have collapsed or failed to make a substantial impact.
I've been terrified for far to fucking long
The speaker has been terrified for an extended period and questions a personal deficiency contributing to it.
What is that thing I lack that makes you so damn strong
The speaker wonders about a quality they lack that makes the other person appear strong.
Your letter in my hands is rolled into a ball
A letter from the other person is crumpled, and the speaker uses humor to deflect the emotional weight.
With drunken comedy it's thrown hard at the wall
The letter is thrown forcefully against the wall in a drunken, emotional outburst.
And it's years since I took stock of it
Similar to line 6, it has been years since the speaker assessed their life, but little progress is evident.
Seems it's not come too much
There is still a lack of significant accomplishment or change in the speaker's life.
This is everything I ever wrote
Reiteration of the disappointment in the speaker's body of work, which has collapsed or failed to resonate.
Collapsed into the core
All the creative efforts have collapsed or failed to make a substantial impact.
And the stitches are unraveling
Metaphorically, the speaker's life is unraveling, and there's a sense of things falling apart.
And the seams have all but burst
Conditions are deteriorating, and it feels like reaching a breaking point.
Maybe all my years of traveling
The speaker reflects on a possibility that their years of traveling have satisfied or extinguished their desires.
Have quenched what I've thirst
Suggesting a sense of fulfillment or contentment with the experiences gained from traveling.
These years have flown by
The passage of time is emphasized, and the speaker reflects on the swift passage of years.
These hands have shaken
The speaker's hands have shaken, possibly indicating nervousness or instability.
I have no notion
There's a lack of understanding or clarity about what comes next in the speaker's life.
Of what happens next
A sense of uncertainty about the future and a lack of foresight.
There's a kind of freedom
The speaker acknowledges a certain kind of freedom, possibly arising from a release of emotional burdens.
And I think of it
The speaker contemplates this freedom, considering its implications and significance.
Then the panic quickens
A sudden feeling of panic interrupts the contemplation, adding a layer of complexity to the emotions.
There is no sorrow
Despite the potential for freedom, there is a realization that sorrow or pain is still present.
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