Pretending to Care
Unveiling Deceptive Embrace
Lyrics
Today I am your chariot horse
Today, I am at your service and support, like a chariot horse.
Tomorrow I'm your albatross
Tomorrow, I become a burden or obstacle, like an albatross around your neck.
Suspended by the finest thread
I am hanging by a delicate thread, vulnerable and unnoticed by others.
No one could ever see
My struggles or pain are hidden, and nobody can perceive them.
And when there's breathing in your ear
When close to you, I hear comforting words, but I question the depth of sincerity.
You put your faith in all you hear
You trust the words you hear, but I wonder if the emotions behind them are genuine.
But just how deep those feelings go
The true extent of your feelings remains uncertain to me.
I have no way to know
I lack the means to understand the depth of your emotions.
I'll never know
I'll never have certainty or clarity.
If I was blind
Even if I were unaware (blind), would you continue to guide and support me?
Would you still be my eyes
Would you still provide insight and perspective?
Or hide everything you see
Or would you hide the truth and shield me from reality?
Pretending to care about me
You pretend to care about me.
When all the time
Despite appearances, you secretly wish for my disappearance.
You're just wishing I'd fade away
Your true desire is for me to fade away.
You just can't bring yourself to
You cannot bring yourself to express the reasons for your feelings.
Say out loud the reasons why
You avoid acknowledging or stating the reasons why.
You won't admit you realize
You refuse to admit that you are aware of the truth.
The promise you've been living by
The promises you've lived by are hollow and unfulfilled.
Is just an empty shell
Those promises are now like an empty shell, devoid of meaning.
You'll come to bear it like a cross
You will bear the burden of deception like a cross.
Then start to tear it like frayed gauze
Eventually, you will unravel and expose the truth, tearing it like frayed gauze.
Though I'm ashamed to be afraid
Despite feeling ashamed, fear makes it difficult to resist.
I just can't help myself
I am unable to control my instincts, even though I am ashamed.
Can't help myself
I am compelled by forces beyond my control.
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