The Right Way
Shades of Redemption: Todd Youngblood's Journey Through Shadows
Lyrics
I put it in drive and I turn on the heat
I start the car and turn on the heat
Her picture on the dash the load in the back seat
Her picture is on the dashboard, and there is a load in the back seat
This last one will pay for what is due
The last task or job will settle what is owed
I'll keep my promise and finally be through
I will fulfill my commitment and finally be done
I've been blocking that sunshine
I have been avoiding happiness or positivity
with a deadbolt on my door
I have been isolating myself with a deadbolt on my door
The bottles and pills on my windowsill
Bottles and pills are on my windowsill, indicating a struggle with emotional pain
So I don't have to feel anymore
Using substances to numb emotions and avoid feeling
I've been blocking that sunshine
Continuing to block out positivity or happiness
One day it's gonna come on through
Expecting a positive change to come eventually
It'll burn like hell but I'll just tell them
Anticipating a difficult experience but justifying it for someone else
That I did it all for you
Claiming that all the struggles are done for the sake of someone else
It started with weed at the age of thirteen
Introduction of substance use at a young age
My ma found the cash while folding my jeans
Money found by the speaker's mother while doing laundry
Things in school I didn't understand
Difficulty understanding things in school
So I listened to the cash talking in my hand
Turning to money as a source of guidance
She didn't bat an eye when she saw that ring
Mother's nonchalant reaction to a significant action or event
And turned her head when I did those things
Ignoring negative actions
The right way is just a shade of grey
Suggesting that the right way is morally ambiguous
But eviction notice always reads the same
Despite ambiguity, the consequences are consistently negative
I've been blocking that sunshine
Continuing to block out positivity or happiness
with a deadbolt on my door
Isolating oneself with a deadbolt on the door
The bottles and pills on my windowsill
Bottles and pills on the windowsill, indicating emotional pain
So I don't have to feel anymore
Using substances to numb emotions and avoid feeling
I've been blocking that sunshine
Continuing to block out positivity or happiness
One day it's gonna come on through
Expecting a positive change to come eventually
It'll burn like hell but I'll just tell them
Anticipating a difficult experience but justifying it for someone else
That I did it all for you
Claiming that all the struggles are done for the sake of someone else
I've made this drop a thousand times
Repeating a risky action many times
But things go wrong in the blink of an eye
Things can go wrong unexpectedly
Glass falls down bullets whistle and hiss
Describing a dangerous situation with falling glass and bullets
I grab the bag and I hope that they miss
Attempting to escape with a bag and hoping to avoid harm
A cigarette burns and I feel the heat
Feeling the heat of a dangerous situation
While her picture glows on the dash
The enduring presence of someone important, despite the chaos
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