Lyrics
Every finger in the room is pointing at me
Feeling judged and blamed by everyone present
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
Desire to retaliate but fearing consequences
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Experiencing intense anxiety (bowling ball in stomach) and thirst (desert in mouth)
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Realization that courage has abandoned in a crucial moment
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Seeking a savior in a grim environment (metaphorical dirty streets)
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
Desiring salvation even in intimate relations (beneath dirty sheets)
I've been raising up my hands
Appealing for help or salvation
Drive another nail in just what god needs one more victim
Feeling like a sacrificial victim in a cruel world
Why do we crucify ourselves
Rhetorical question about self-inflicted suffering
Every day
Repeated daily self-punishment
I crucify myself
Self-blame and self-sacrifice
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Inadequacy felt in attempts to please others
Crucify myself
Continued self-inflicted suffering
Every day
Continual self-criticism and self-punishment
And my heart is sick of being in chains
Desire for freedom from emotional bondage
Got a kick for a dog beggin' for love
Comparing oneself to a mistreated dog in need of affection
I gotta have my suffering so that I can have my cross
Belief in the necessity of suffering for spiritual fulfillment
I know a cat named Easter he says
Reference to a character questioning the ability to learn and grow
Will you ever learn you're just an empty cage girl
Feeling trapped and worthless
If you kill the bird
Imagining consequences of destroying something innocent
I've been looking for a savior...
Continued search for salvation
Looking for a savior...
Reiterated pursuit of a savior
I've been raising up my hands...
Repeated appeal for help or salvation
Got enough guilt to start my own religion
Feeling burdened by overwhelming guilt
Please be save me
Plea for rescue or salvation
I cry
Expressing emotional distress and a need for help
Why do we...
Rhetorical continuation of questioning self-inflicted suffering
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