Lyrics
Five a.m. Friday morning Thursday night far from sleep
Feeling sleep-deprived at 5 a.m. on a Friday morning after a late night.
I'm still up and driving can't go home obviously
Unable to go home, still driving with a full tank of gas and snacks.
So I'll just change direction 'cause they'll soon know where I live
Changing direction to avoid revealing her home location.
And I want to live
Expressing a desire to live.
Got a full tank and some chips
Having resources, both a full tank of gas and some snacks.
It was me
Describing a traumatic experience of sexual assault involving a gun.
And a gun
-And a man
-On my back
-And I sang Holly Holy as he buttoned down his pants
-You can laugh
Suggesting the gravity of the situation by acknowledging the irony and humor.
It's kind of funny
Reflecting on unexpected and dark thoughts during distressing times.
Things you think
Contemplating unusual thoughts during a crisis.
Times like these
Highlighting the surreal nature of the situation.
Like I haven't seen Barbados so I must get out of this
Referencing Barbados as a metaphor for a better place, expressing a desire to escape.
Yes I wore a slinky red thing
Acknowledging wearing provocative attire during the incident.
Does that mean I should spread for you, your friends
Questioning the implications of her clothing and if it justifies the assault.
Your father, Mr. Ed
Mentioning various individuals (friends, father, Mr. Ed) with a sense of vulnerability.
It was me
Reiterating the traumatic experience and the desire to escape.
And a gun
-And a man
-On my back
-But I haven't seen Barbados so I must get out of this
-And I know what this means
Referencing a past conversation with Jesus, emphasizing the gravity of the choice made.
Me and Jesus a few years back used to hang
Recalling advice from Jesus about choices and the uncertainty of returning.
And he said it's your choice babe just remember
-I don't think you'll be back in three days time so you choose well
-Tell me what's right
Pondering what is morally right in the context of the traumatic event.
Is it my right to be on my stomach of Fred's Seville
Describing a vulnerable position, lying on her stomach in Fred's Seville.
It was me
Reiterating the traumatic experience and the desire to escape.
And a gun
-And a man
-On my back
-But I haven't seen Barbados so I must get out of this
-And do you know Carolina
Referencing Carolina, possibly as a distraction or escape in thought.
Where the biscuits are soft and sweet
Describing Carolina with sensory details, possibly as a coping mechanism.
These things go through your head when there's a man on your back
Explaining how thoughts drift during distress, mentioning the man on her back.
And you're pushed flat on your stomach it's not a classic Cadillac
Contrasting the grim reality with the image of a non-classic Cadillac.
It was me
Reiterating the traumatic experience and the desire to escape.
And a gun
-And a man
-On my back
-But I haven't seen Barbados so I must get out of this
-I haven't seen Barbados so I must get out of this
Emphasizing the urgency of escaping the current situation and seeing a better place.
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