Can't Remember a Day
Shared Pain, Unseen Struggles: Tosi Udayana's Poignant Reflections
Lyrics
Your taste in cars is shit that's all I know
Your preference in cars is terrible, that's the only thing I'm certain of.
Other sides of you I must have overseen
I might have missed or not fully understood other aspects of your personality.
We've been through this already a few years ago
We've discussed this situation before, a few years back.
Just think about how bad this could have been
Consider how much worse things could have turned out.
And I'm not even sure that you notice
I'm uncertain if you're even aware of certain things.
Hope a look in my eyes makes it clear
I hope a glance into my eyes conveys my feelings clearly.
And that's also the reason I wrote this
This song is also a way for me to express the significance of your presence.
How much it means to me that all of you're here
The importance of all of you being here means a lot to me.
All the times you hide
Instances when you conceal things.
And those things you've tried
The actions you've attempted.
To get those thoughts out your head
Efforts made to remove certain thoughts from your mind.
Yeah, just know we're all there too
Know that we are also present in similar situations.
And we've all been through
We've all experienced comparable emotional struggles.
The same tears in each of our beds
We've shed similar tears in our beds.
And I can't remember a day
I can't recall a day without someone like you to contact.
Not having one of you to call
We rarely discuss it, but I know you're there for me when I need support.
We don't talk about it very often
Two individuals are now without their fathers.
I know you're all there when I fall
No matter what I do, I can't offer the help needed.
Two of us are now missing their dads
Imagining the difficult nights you must have endured.
And there's no help in the world I could provide
I know you've lied about being fine during those times.
Can't imagine the nights you must have had
We've spent a lot of time on fruitless endeavors.
And those times you said you're fine I know you lied
Driving home with music that evokes emotions strong enough to cry.
We spent all this time throwing coins into a table
In our gaming groups, we display instability due to distance.
I drive home to music I could cry to
Despite the distance, I wish I could be physically present with you.
Our gaming lobbies make us act unstable
You haven't noticed over all these years.
A thousand miles apart, wanna be beside you
Expressing the importance of your presence through eye contact.
And all those years but you haven't noticed
This song is also an expression of gratitude for your presence.
Hope a look in my eyes makes it clear
The significance of your presence here is immensely important to me.
And that's also the reason I wrote this
Instances when you hide your feelings.
How much it means to me that all of you're here
The actions you've attempted.
All the times you hide
Efforts made to remove certain thoughts from your mind.
And those things you've tried
Know that we are also present in similar situations.
To get those thoughts out your head
We've all experienced comparable emotional struggles.
Yeah, just know we're all there too
We've shed similar tears in our beds.
And we've all been through
I can't recall a day without someone like you to contact.
The same tears in each of our beds
We rarely discuss it, but I know you're there for me when I need support.
And I can't remember a day
Two individuals are now without their fathers.
Not having one of you to call
No matter what I do, I can't offer the help needed.
We don't talk about it very often
Imagining the difficult nights you must have endured.
Just know we're all there when you fall
I know you've lied about being fine during those times.
And I'm so sorry cause you were there through all my pain
We've spent a lot of time on fruitless endeavors.
And I was blind to yours, yeah, I just couldn't see
Driving home with music that evokes emotions strong enough to cry.
We got a message and suddenly we're all standing
Despite the distance, I wish I could be physically present with you.
In that parking lot that evening in the rain
This song serves as a reminder of a particular gathering in a rainy parking lot.
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