Home Away from Here
Chasing Brightness: A Journey of Yearning and Acceptance
Lyrics
I'm coming to terms that I'm not concerned
I'm accepting that I'm not bothered
With planting my feet but moving onward
Not fixated on staying in one place but moving forward
I'm growing older but I can't get over
Getting older, yet struggling to overcome
The need of colder skin when I know that home is warmer
Longing for colder experiences, even when aware that home is warmer
It's just I have this problem
Expressing a recurring issue
Where I want to be everywhere I'm not
Desire to be elsewhere than the current location
But I'm thankful for what I've got
Grateful for what is currently possessed
A room in a house where my bed may stay
Having a room, but seeking solace in different beds
But the feel of another's sheets help keep my demons away
Other people's sheets providing comfort and repelling personal struggles
It's become clear that what keeps me here
Realizing that the fear of failure and nightmares keeps one in place
Is the sense of failure and other nightmares
Feeling disillusioned and unable to escape negative thoughts
I've become jaded and I can't escape it
Becoming cynical and struggling to break free from it
The thought of settling when I know it's what I've hated
Rejecting the idea of settling down despite the dislike for it
It's just I have this problem
Reiterating the desire to be elsewhere
Where I want to be everywhere I'm not
The persistent urge to be in different places
It's just I know myself and I'll sacrifice everything I've got
Knowing oneself and being willing to sacrifice everything for change
Though I can't afford to eat as much as I would like to be
Acknowledging financial limitations and the need to devise new plans
And my bills won't pay themselves so I'll come up with another scheme
Recognizing the responsibility of paying bills and seeking alternatives
This place looks better from a passenger window
Seeing the current place more positively from a distance
Or stared at from above
Or appreciating it when observed from above
But when you're chasing brightness
In the pursuit of brightness or happiness
You lose concern with the damage done
Diminishing concern for the consequences
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