Swimming Lessons
Contemplating Life's Choices: A Dive into Emotional Turmoil
Lyrics
I'm passively pondering the purpose of everything I meant to say to you
I am reflecting passively on the intended communication I failed to convey to you.
I'm constantly wondering if decisions I made would've happened out of the blue
I am consistently questioning whether the choices I made would have occurred unexpectedly.
Would they have happened out of the blue?
Raising doubt about whether these events would have happened without prior indication.
Would they have ever happened at all?
Questioning the possibility of these events happening at all.
I have a habit of running away from all the good things
Admitting a tendency to avoid positive experiences and things that are meant to provide security.
That come and everything that's supposed make me safe
Avoiding circumstances that are supposed to ensure my well-being.
And alive
Expressing a struggle to appreciate and embrace life.
I never wanted to see you cry
Avoiding causing you emotional pain was never my intention.
You're so far away
Acknowledging the emotional distance between us.
It's hard to tell when I've made a change
Uncertainty in recognizing personal growth or change.
But I'd take your call every morning
Desiring to receive your call every morning as a positive connection.
Please say I never tried again
Expressing a wish that I hadn't attempted something again.
Please say that this never happened
Hoping that the negative event did not occur.
I'll never make that drive again
Committing to avoiding a specific action in the future.
I wasted so much gas and wasted so many miles
Regret for wasting resources, both time and energy.
On the car
The reference to a car symbolizes a journey that did not progress far.
We never got that far
Expressing a sense of stagnation or lack of progress in the relationship.
I can't direct my feelings any different than I have
Inability to control feelings in a different direction than previously experienced.
I can't direct my emotions any better than I have this time
Acknowledging limitations in managing emotions better in this instance.
I'll go along
Resignation and acceptance of the situation.
I don't know what I've done wrong
Expressing confusion about the perceived wrongdoing.
It's a Swimming lesson in a seaside depression manufactured all by myself
Metaphorically describing a self-induced emotional struggle as a swimming lesson in a depressive environment.
I guess I'll just move on
Deciding to move forward despite not understanding the perceived mistake.
But I don't know what I've done wrong
Reiteration of uncertainty about the perceived wrongdoing.
I guess I'll just move on
Choosing to move on despite not fully comprehending the situation.
I guess I'll just move on
Final acceptance and commitment to moving on from the experience.
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