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You never liked my tattoos or the way that I cut my hair
You disapprove of my tattoos and how I style my hair
You say that you love me you just hate everything I am
You claim to love me but dislike everything that defines me
Pick apart all the pieces you like
You selectively analyze and approve only certain aspects of me
All the images you want to see
You desire specific images or portrayals of me
It's alright throw away all the rest
You're fine discarding everything else that doesn't fit your ideal
It's just all of me
You reject the entirety of who I am
And I've spent the last decade or so trying to unlearn
I've spent years trying to undo the self-hatred you instilled in me
How you taught me to hate myself
Your influence made me despise myself
All my pages are burned
All my personal history or attempts are destroyed
You don't know who I am
You're unaware of my true identity
You simply know all you wish to see
You only acknowledge what fits your perception
You love everything that I never was
You cherish an idealized version of me that never existed
You hate everything that's real inside of me
You detest the genuine aspects within me
I studied until I knew nothing at all
I pursued knowledge until it left me with empty beliefs
All I learned turned into hollow beliefs
What I learned became shallow or insubstantial
Learning to apologize for everything that's not my fault
I've been conditioned to apologize for things beyond my fault
Now I fight to live unapologetically
Now I strive to live without apologizing for being myself
And I've spent the last decade or so trying to unlearn
Continuing to try and undo the self-hatred you caused
How you taught me to hate myself
Your influence led me to despise who I am
All my pages are burned
All my personal history or attempts are destroyed
You don't know who I am
You're oblivious to my true self
You simply know all you wish to see
You only acknowledge what fits your perception
You love everything that I never was
You cherish an idealized version of me that never existed
You hate everything that's real inside of me
You detest the genuine aspects within me
Maybe this time around
Perhaps this time, I'll finally learn self-love
I will learn to love myself
Maybe now I'll start to appreciate myself
Maybe this time around
Possibly this time, I'll develop self-acceptance
I will learn to love myself
Perhaps now I'll embrace self-love
Maybe this time around
Maybe this time, I'll find a way to love myself
I will learn somehow to love myself
Hoping to finally learn self-appreciation
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