Lyrics
I don't think about you
I don't actively think about you.
Till I'm alone
Thoughts of you only come when I'm by myself.
I don't talk about you
I don't discuss you in conversation.
Till a friends calls asking why
I only talk about you when a friend asks why you're not present.
You're not around
Noticing your absence when you're not around.
I say I'm fine
Responding that I'm okay, masking true feelings.
So I take the L train
Taking the L train, a symbolic journey.
To a new stop
Heading to a new stop, seeking change.
Always in the fourth car
Consistently choosing a specific train car, anticipating encountering you.
In case I pass your block
Being cautious near your place, trying to avoid memories.
Cause I don't wanna feel you
Expressing a desire to disconnect from emotional attachment.
Still haven't washed my sheets
Keeping a reminder of you by not changing my sheets.
Since your left last week
Not moving on since your departure.
Leftovers of your existence
Remnants of your presence linger, making it difficult to be myself.
Now I'm left to be me
Struggling with self-identity in the aftermath of the relationship.
And I don't wanna sleep on my own
Expressing a reluctance to sleep alone.
I wake up to your water cup
Confronting reminders of you in my morning routine.
And say hello
Greeting your absence as if you were still there.
Laugh at myself it's so fucked up
Recognizing the irony in my behavior.
Wish I felt at home
Yearning for a sense of belonging and comfort.
I'm afraid to sleep on my own
Expressing fear and discomfort at the prospect of sleeping alone.
You were the last one to play my guitar
Recalling a shared moment involving a guitar.
Still haven't picked it up
Avoiding engaging with reminders of the past.
I wanna keep you alive
Desiring to keep the memory of the person alive through belongings.
In the smell of all my stuff
Associating your presence with familiar scents in my surroundings.
I just wanna feel you
Expressing a longing for emotional connection.
I heard you found a new someone
Learning about your new relationship.
And she's real young
Noting the age difference of your new partner.
I'm sure she'll keep you happier
Wishing for your happiness in the new relationship.
And won't require too much
Suggesting that the new relationship may be simpler and less demanding.
And I'll get used to sleeping alone
Acknowledging the eventual adjustment to sleeping alone.
Comment