Autopsy reports heartbreak
Heartbreak Symphony: Trevor Koin's Emotional Journey Unveiled
Lyrics
Pick my heart right out my chest
Picking my heart out of my chest, expressing vulnerability.
Saw stars align on the night we met
Noticed positive signs on the night we met, possibly stars aligning.
They were probably aligning for someone else
Suspecting that those signs were for someone else, implying disappointment.
Heartbreak songs now I'm a mess
Experiencing heartbreak, leading to emotional turmoil.
I was chasing
Pursuing a particular feeling, perhaps related to love or connection.
A feeling I thought I found when I found you
Realizing the feeling with the person was not genuine.
I was clearly lying to myself
Acknowledging self-deception in the pursuit of that feeling.
You were clearly slipping me potions
Suspecting manipulation through the mention of potions.
And I didn't know
Unaware of the impact on health caused by the relationship.
You were fucking with my health
Realizing the detrimental effects on well-being.
But we had our moments
Recalling positive moments despite the overall negative experience.
And every single time I thought that love was involved in it
Associating love with those moments, possibly misinterpreting.
I guess that was just me I was always just wishing and hoping
Admitting to wishful thinking and unrealistic expectations.
Took my heart right out my chest you didn't have to leave it open
Feeling exposed after having the heart taken out and left open.
And honestly I was really hooked on the motions
Becoming addicted to the emotions associated with the relationship.
I thought you were sent by God to come and fix all the holes in me
Believing the person was a savior fixing personal issues.
And every single time I was always just lost in the moment
Getting lost in moments but realizing a childlike dependence.
I turned to a child and became more dependent and hopeless
Turning into an addict, seeking the person in every aspect of life.
I thought it was over me trying to find my fish in the ocean
Contemplating the end of the search for personal fulfillment.
I turned to an addict and everywhere I looked I saw your lips
Becoming addicted and associating the person with addiction.
But I guess I'm over it now
Claiming to be over the past experiences.
It's getting kinda late and my eyes are heavy
Noticing the late hour and expressing fatigue.
I had to get it off my chest it was getting bad
Revealing the emotional burden and need for release.
I was just toying with depression and getting sad
Admitting to playing with depression and experiencing sadness.
And about the whole situation I was getting mad
Expressing anger about the situation.
Punching holes through the wall
Physically venting frustration by punching holes in the wall.
Okay not through them but there's definitely some blood on the wall
Acknowledging the consequences of the physical expression of anger.
And now that I'm thinking I should probably also be putting up walls
Contemplating the need for emotional protection, possibly building walls.
Around my heart
Deciding to guard the heart and prevent emotional intrusion.
And probably a couple spikes no-one's climbing the wall
Emphasizing the determination to maintain emotional distance.
She told me "Let me in"
Recalling a request to be let into the emotional space.
And I did
Complying with the request but realizing the mistake.
How very silly of me
Reflecting on the imprudence of allowing emotional access.
Even said "You didn't have to ask"
Expressing regret for not setting boundaries earlier.
Now it's keeping me up at night
Experiencing insomnia and loss of appetite due to emotional turmoil.
Lost all my appetite
Expressing a desire not to feel this way, acknowledging the song's origin.
Really wish that I didn't but this song wouldn't exist if it weren't for that
Acknowledging the existence of the song as a result of the emotional experience.
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