Lyrics
Oh shit maybe, bitch I wasn't crazy
Expressing surprise or disbelief, acknowledging past doubts about one's sanity
I've been at this shit like since I was a baby
Been engaged in this pursuit since childhood
Eyes are hazy, I fell in my daydream
Feeling lost in a daydream, disconnected from reality
Now they in my DMs talking about "boy you amaze me!"
Receiving admiration or praise through direct messages for one's abilities or actions
Bitch I wasn't lazy
Asserting that one wasn't idle or unmotivated
I stayed up 'til 5AM just so I could make it
Staying up late to work hard towards a goal
My heart it was aching
Experiencing emotional pain or distress
I felt so alone with a smile I was faking
Feeling alone despite putting on a facade of happiness
I hit up my bros just to find out they were hating
Seeking support from friends, discovering they were against or envious of one's aspirations
Yeah, they were hating
Confirmation of friends' negative attitudes towards the singer
Knew what they were saying
Awareness of the negativity conveyed by friends
"maybe you should get a job and
Advising the singer to abandon waiting and pursue a traditional job
Give up on the waiting"
Asserting the continuous effort despite challenges
Just know that I'm trying
Reiterating the determination and effort being put forth
You know that I'm trying
Confirming the persistent attempt to succeed
Maybe one day you can
Hope for a better future, possibly together with someone
Picture us flying
Imagining a future where both parties are successful and happy
Saw the other kids moving forward with their lives
Observing peers progressing in life, diverging from personal ambitions
College was their dream but just know it wasn't mine
Highlighting a different dream compared to peers who pursued college
I was afraid I was running out of time
Fearing time constraints and feeling pressured
Felt like my goals were falling out of line
Sensing a deviation from personal goals
Had to wake up and realize I was by myself
Realization of self-reliance and solitude in the journey
What's the point in talking if they don't know what I felt
Questioning the purpose of sharing feelings if they won't be understood
Looking back I'm glad that I never got help
Reflecting positively on not receiving external assistance
Teachers pat my back and they said "oh well"
Recollection of teachers' indifference or dismissal of efforts
Didn't give up, started making them dollars
Beginning to earn money despite obstacles
Bitch I'm young and beautiful, I'm feeling like Lana
Feeling confident and reminiscent of Lana Del Rey's vibe
Now I make enough just to do what I wanna
Earning enough to have personal freedom and choice
All of that money goes straight to my mama
Using earnings to support or take care of family
Bitch I wasn't lazy
Reiteration of hard work and dedication
I stayed up 'til 5AM just so I could make it
Staying up late to pursue goals despite personal struggles
My heart it was aching
Reiteration of emotional distress despite a façade of happiness
I felt so alone with a smile I was faking
Feeling alone despite outwardly appearing content
I hit up my bros just to find out they were hating
Discovering friends' negative feelings or jealousy
Yeah, they were hating
Reiteration of friends' negative sentiments
Knew what they were saying
Awareness of friends' discouraging advice about seeking traditional employment
"maybe you should get a job and
Continued effort despite external pressure to abandon aspirations
Give up on the waiting"
Reassertion of ongoing endeavor despite challenges
Just know that I'm trying
Reaffirming the commitment and perseverance
You know that I'm trying
Restating the continuous effort and determination
Maybe one day you can
Hope for a future where success is achieved, possibly together
Picture us flying
Imagining a scenario of both parties achieving great things together
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