18 Years
Echoes of Lost Summers: Twin Shadow's Reflection on 18 Years
Lyrics
Everything you wanted in your life
Desire for everything in life
Has happened to you now
Achievement of desired things
But you're standing in the courtyard
Being in a courtyard
Mourning new lost friends
Mourning the loss of new friends
Whose lives were cut short before the summer's end
Friends who died before summer's end
And the boy you want so bad is sitting courtside with miss everything you hate
Desire for a specific boy
And it shapes the way you look at men
Observing a boy with someone disliked
And you're bothered by the weight of having to pretend
Feeling burdened by pretense
That it's still summer, but it's not summer
Recognition that summer is over
Eighteen years
Reflecting on eighteen years
Chained to my fears
Feeling constrained by fears
In too deep, losing sleep
Deep emotional involvement, sleepless nights
Tragedies reminding me of why I'm losing sleep
Tragedies reinforcing reasons for insomnia
I'm in too deep
Being excessively involved or overwhelmed
I give up, I give up, talk to me
Expressing surrender, seeking communication
I give up, I give up, talk to me
Repeated plea for communication
Every boy you seem to trust, loves to let you down
Lack of trust in boys, anticipation of disappointment
There always standing on the edge of what makes sense
Boys on the edge of sensibility
Like he's tryna focus frame with a dirty lens
Struggling to see clearly, using a metaphor of a dirty lens
And he doesn't ever let you live it down, the way you give it up
Boys not letting go of mistakes
So you fill your time with curtain calls
Filling time with curtain calls, seeking validation
And you know his skin's harder than a nipple
Noting the toughness of someone
Not like the summer, not like the summer
Comparing toughness to the harshness of reality
Eighteen years
Reflecting on eighteen years again
Chained to my fears
Feeling trapped by fears once more
In too deep, losing sleep
Deep emotional involvement, persistent insomnia
Tragedies reminding me of why I'm losing sleep
Tragedies reinforcing ongoing sleep struggles
I'm in too deep
Continued overwhelming involvement
I give up, I give up, talk to me
Reiteration of surrender, seeking conversation
I give up, I give up, talk to me
Repeated plea for communication
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