It's Hard to Win When You Always Lose
Navigating the Abyss: A Drug-Induced Odyssey in $uicideBoy$'s Melody
Lyrics
I poured up a dirty Sprite again
The speaker has consumed a mixture of codeine and promethazine syrup, known as a "dirty Sprite."
I pop all these Percs and Vicodins
The speaker has ingested both Percocet and Vicodin, opioid pain medications.
I poured up a dirty Sprite again
Repetition of drug use, emphasizing a cycle or pattern of substance abuse.
I pop all these Percs and Vicodins
-I poured up a dirty Sprite again
-I pop all these Percs and Vicodins
-I poured up a dirty Sprite again
-I pop all these Percs and Vicodins
-'96 Impala with a bottle full of Roxy
The speaker is driving a 1996 Chevrolet Impala and has a bottle of Roxicodone (Roxy).
Know I got Suboxone when I
The speaker acknowledges being addicted to drugs, specifically mentioning Suboxone, a medication for opioid addiction.
Run out from the popping
-Drug addicted, I admit it
-Said before, ain't trying to quit it
-Codeine, codeine, got it dripping on my
Codeine is mentioned again, and the speaker describes the effects of drug use on their appearance.
Shirt from sloppy sipping
-Popping some Percs and some Vicodins
The speaker is consuming Percocet and Vicodin simultaneously.
Leaning back, hoping that life would end
The speaker expresses a desire for life to end while under the influence of drugs.
Again and again, that's everyday, everyday
Daily struggles with drug addiction, rejecting the idea of rehab and accepting a self-destructive lifestyle.
Fuck a rehab, I just wither my life away
-Grey forever-ever, drug possessors
Reference to a bleak future, being a possessor of drugs, and a metaphorical representation of life expectancy on a dresser.
My life expectancy up on the dresser
-Pathetic, I need anaesthetics
The speaker feels pathetic, lacking energy, and acknowledges a genetic predisposition to drug use.
I ain't energetic
-All these drugs, never regret it
-I guess it's genetic
-It ain't my aesthetic, that's fucking generic
Rejecting a conventional aesthetic, criticizing generic choices, and declaring the $uicideBoy$ as an epidemic.
$uicide the epidemic
Encouraging a departure from academics and promoting drug use.
Make the kids quit academics
-Take drugs 'till you epileptic
Advocating drug use to the point of seizures, with a call for paramedics and acknowledging the magnetic pull of depression.
Call the paramedics, depression magnetic
-I'm anti-kinetic, fucking apathetic
Expressing a lack of energy, apathy, and a pathetic state, urging others to move on without the speaker.
Again I'm pathetic just move on without me
-Then fucking forget it
Insisting on forgetting the speaker's struggles and moving forward.
Thought I moved on, but I
Despite attempts to move on, the speaker keeps forgetting, indicating a recurring struggle.
Keep forgetting, yeah, yeah, yeah
-I poured up a dirty Sprite again
Reiteration of the destructive cycle of consuming a dirty Sprite and opioids.
I pop all these Percs and Vicodins
-I poured up a dirty Sprite again
-I pop all these Percs and Vicodins
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