Lyrics
I tried to convince myself
The speaker attempted to convince themselves.
It's too nice in the sun
They find it more comfortable or pleasant in sunlight.
To stay in your shade
They don't want to remain in someone else's shadow.
cnother could love me through my bones
No one else could understand or love them deeply.
Oh, what shame
Expressing regret or embarrassment.
I fear I shall always want you
The speaker feels they'll always desire the person.
Boy,
Addressing someone as "Boy."
Call me an actress
The speaker compares themselves to an actress.
You know I come when I'm called
They respond when called or summoned.
Isn't that despicable?
Reflecting on their own actions with disdain.
Isn't that despicable?
Repeated expression of self-disgust.
Just say my name
Request to have their name said aloud.
Just say my name
Repetition of the request to be acknowledged.
You could peel the fingernails
Extreme willingness to endure pain for the person.
From my flesh
Willingness to endure pain without complaint.
I'd smile the whole time
They would endure pain happily for the sake of touch.
Just to feel your touch
Desire for physical contact despite the pain.
You tell me all the time, I know
Acknowledgment of being perceived as strange.
You think I'm very strange
They find their way of life sensible.
But the way I live makes sense to me
Acceptance of staying true to themselves.
I think I'll stay the same
Commitment to maintaining their current state.
Boy,
Reiteration of addressing someone as "Boy."
Call me an actress
Comparing themselves again to an actress.
You know I come when I'm called
They respond predictably to being called.
Isn't that despicable?
Continued self-condemnation for their actions.
Isn't that despicable?
Repetition of self-criticism.
Just say my name
Repetition of the desire to hear their name spoken.
Just say my name
Reiteration of the desire for acknowledgment.
Just once
Expressing a singular desire for exclusivity.
Just once
Repetition of the desire for exclusivity.
I wanna be the only one
Desire to be the sole focus of attention.
Call me an actress
Restating comparison to an actress.
You know I come when I'm called
Consistent response to being called or summoned.
Isn't that despicable?
Continued self-disparagement for their actions.
Isn't that despicable?
Reiteration of self-reproach.
Just say my name
Repetition of the desire for their name to be said.
Just say my name
Repetition of the longing for acknowledgment.
Just once
Expressing a singular desire for exclusivity.
Just once
Repetition of the desire for exclusivity.
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