Lyrics
Sometimes I don't feel too safe
Sometimes, I feel insecure or at risk.
On my ones it's like I can't trust myself
When alone, I struggle to trust myself.
But all now I've been doing
Continuing to handle things independently.
This ting on my ones it's
Engaged in my own activities, hesitant to seek help.
Like I can't ask for help
It's difficult for me to ask for assistance.
Feel like I never found myself
Feeling lost and not having a clear self-identity.
Cuz' now Eli's just stranded
A reference to someone named Eli feeling abandoned.
Sometimes I have to take a step back
Needing to take a break due to overwhelming situations.
And sit down cuz' I just can't stand it
Reflecting on challenging circumstances that are hard to endure.
I wonder what it feels
Curious about the experience of living without worries.
Like to have no worries
Expressing a desire for a stress-free existence.
In this forsaken place
Feeling discontent with the current situation.
I get a glimpse of it
Occasionally experiencing a fleeting sense of contentment.
When I'm full of alcohol
Alcohol provides a temporary escape and pleasure.
I never let it go to waste
Not wasting opportunities to enjoy life.
Goes down well
Alcohol consumption is enjoyable.
With a couple of straights
Sharing these moments with close friends.
Gives me strength to lift weight
Alcohol gives strength, metaphorically or physically.
But this forsaken place
Accepting the challenges of one's home environment.
It's my home so I can't complain
Despite difficulties, no complaints about the home.
I am a sinner
Acknowledging personal flaws and mistakes.
And I don't wanna sin again
Expressing a desire to avoid repeating past mistakes.
But lord forgive me
Seeking forgiveness for inevitable future errors.
Cuz' I'm probably gonna sin again
Anticipating the likelihood of committing sins again.
Suicidal thoughts haunt my mind
Battling thoughts of self-harm due to the pursuit of happiness.
Cuz I'm searching for happiness I can't find
Struggling to find happiness despite efforts.
Got some temptations I can't hide
Facing temptations that are difficult to conceal.
But I always try to do what I feel is right
Always striving to do what is perceived as right.
Yeah, yeah
Reiteration or emphasis, possibly expressing agreement.
I always find peace in the rain
Finding solace or calmness in rainy moments.
Cuz' sometimes the sun's too blinding
Opting for the tranquility of rain over the harshness of the sun.
Sometimes I hate my old ways
Conflicted feelings about past behavior.
But sometimes I just don't mind it
Occasionally accepting or being indifferent to past actions.
Now they wanna take me for a cunt
Challenging someone to criticize or insult.
Go on then, I beg you just try it
Inviting others to test their negative perceptions.
Don't think that I'm soft just
Not soft-hearted despite creating melancholic songs.
Cuz' I make some sad songs
Emphasizing a preference for peace over conflict.
And I don't like fighting
A reference to personal dietary habits and lifestyle.
I've been skipping breakfast a lot
Despite challenges, always making time for essential activities.
But I always find time for dining
Exploring uncharted territory, facing new challenges.
I went down stairs that I never
Making progress in unexplored areas of life.
Climbed so now forever I'm climbing
Committing to continuous personal growth.
And sometimes I lose all motivation
Experiencing occasional loss of motivation.
But I swear that I always find it
Despite challenges, always rediscovering motivation.
I wonder if I'll see my shining
Questioning the potential for personal success or fulfillment.
Or have I just been blinded?
Uncertainty about achieving personal goals or aspirations.
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