Lyrics
And I've been waiting for years for you to come home
Expressing anticipation and longing for someone's return after a long time.
Thought I found a friend in the bottle
Initially finding solace or companionship in alcohol.
But I still wake up alone
Despite the reliance on alcohol, still waking up alone and feeling a sense of emptiness.
Is anything real
Raising the question of the authenticity or reality of the experiences.
Every day feels like a dream
Describing a surreal or dreamlike quality to daily life.
I'm trying to wake from this nightmare
Expressing a desire to escape from a nightmarish situation.
That you hand-painted for me
Suggesting that the challenging situation was deliberately created or orchestrated by someone else.
You said you were an angel
Referring to someone as an angel, possibly highlighting their perceived goodness or innocence.
With your hand on my shoulder
Describing a comforting presence initially, with a hand on the shoulder.
Then you pushed me to the edge
Transitioning to a point where this angelic figure pushes the speaker to their limits.
And blamed me for growing colder
Being blamed for becoming emotionally distant or colder.
Now your perfect canvas is cracked
Metaphorically stating that the idealized canvas of the relationship is damaged or imperfect.
The truth is bleeding through
Revelation that the truth about the situation is becoming evident and cannot be hidden.
I know now you can't be saved
Concluding that the person involved cannot be saved or redeemed.
If I believed in God I'd pray for you
If the speaker believed in God, they would pray for the person's well-being despite the challenges.
The weight of your world is crushing me
Expressing the overwhelming burden of the other person's issues affecting the speaker.
I've never felt so fucking lost
Feeling intensely lost and disoriented.
And now I know between you and me
Realizing the personal cost incurred in the relationship.
I paid the goddamn cost
Emphasizing the speaker's sacrifice or suffering in the relationship.
Now every day's an everlasting game
Describing the daily struggle as an unending game to numb emotional pain.
To numb the pain till I can't breathe
Attempting to cope with pain until it becomes unbearable.
Couldn't cure the poison you left in my soul
Acknowledging the inability to rid oneself of the negative impact left by the other person.
And now I succumb as it consumes me
Yielding to the destructive influence of the other person's actions.
You said you were an angel
Repetition of the earlier description of the person as an angel.
With your hand on my shoulder
Recalling the comforting gesture of the angelic figure.
Then you pushed me to the edge
Repeating the idea of being pushed to the edge and blamed for growing distant.
And you blamed me for growing colder
Reiteration of the impact of the person's actions on the speaker.
Now your perfect canvas is cracked
Restating the metaphor of the imperfect canvas and the emerging truth.
Your true color is bleeding through
Reaffirming the revelation that the true nature of the person is evident.
I know now that you can't be saved
Reiterating the belief that the person cannot be saved or redeemed.
If I believed in God I would never pray for you
Repeating the notion that if the speaker believed in God, they would not pray for the person.
I'd never I'd never I'd never
Repetition emphasizing the speaker's decision not to pray for the person.
No I'd never I'd never I'd never
Further emphasizing the speaker's choice not to pray for the person.
I'd never pray for you
Finalizing the rejection of prayer for the person, indicating a firm stance.
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