Lyrics
I told you to wait
I advised you to be patient
I told you to wait
Repeated emphasis on the need for patience
18 with a Hollywood dream
An 18-year-old with aspirations of success in Hollywood
Top down with the prom queen
Driving with the prom queen, convertible top down
Blacked out
Unconscious or unaware, perhaps due to distractions
Lights out ain't for everyone
The concept that certain experiences are not suitable for everyone
So I cared less for myself
Choosing not to prioritize self-care
(Yeah) smoking something that kind of stinks
Engaging in a substance with an unpleasant odor
Maybe that's just teenage things
Attribute the unpleasant smell to typical teenage behavior
Love made me hate everything
Love has caused resentment towards everything
Why'd you leave me by myself
Expressing loneliness and abandonment during rainy times
(Yeah) when it rains
A metaphorical reference to emotional pain
I'm bleedin'
Symbolizing emotional wounds
All these scars ain't healin'
Permanent emotional damage that hasn't healed
Picked up all these pieces
Collecting and putting back together the broken pieces for someone
Just for you to leave
Investing effort for someone who eventually leaves
Now I'm way too fuckin' busy all by myself
Being excessively occupied, possibly to avoid loneliness
And I think
Contemplating the situation
You're the one that always needed help
Believing the person who left always needed assistance
(No) Don't hit me up at 3am
Rejecting late-night contact attempts
Saying you miss me once again
Resentment towards insincere expressions of missing
You never cared about how I felt
Accusation of not caring about emotions
You're the one that left me all by myself
Blaming the person for abandonment
So Imma light a cigarette
Seeking solace in a cigarette
Don't want to talk about it
Aversion to discussing the situation
Think about it let's forget
Suggesting forgetting the pain caused
Just the way you made me feel
Reflecting on the impact of the person's actions
Mini skirt with no heels
Visual description of someone
Late night pictures
Receiving images to evoke negative emotions
Just to make me feel low
Intentional actions to lower self-esteem
And I got nothing left to give
Feeling emotionally drained and having nothing more to give
I guess it is what it is
Acceptance of the situation
Why'd you break me
Questioning why the person caused emotional harm
And leave me so heartless
Expressing the aftermath of a heartbreak
I hope you feel the way I feel
Wishing the person to experience the same emotional pain
'Cause you did this to yourself
Attributing responsibility to the person for their own feelings
Hope your happy sittin' lonely in the darkness
Wishing loneliness and darkness upon the person
When it rains
Reiteration of emotional pain during rainy times
I'm bleedin'
Repeating the image of bleeding during emotional turmoil
All these scars ain't healin'
Highlighting lingering emotional scars
Picked up all these pieces
Reassembling oneself for someone who left
Just for you to leave
Repeating the theme of being occupied and alone
I'm way too fuckin' busy all by myself
Emphasizing excessive busyness without the person
And I think
Reiterating the belief that the person always needed help
You're the one that always needed help
Discouraging late-night attempts to reconnect
(No) Don't hit me up at 3am
Rejecting insincere expressions of missing again
Saying you miss me once again
Asserting the person's lack of concern for emotions
You never cared about how I felt
Reaffirming blame for abandonment
You're the one that left me all by myself
Final accusation of being left alone
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